back for another entry to update another of my days. Tchers day celebration 2day. woke up late and so did Vicky. reached Chinese Garden even later. sianz. Kai went first. oh well. when i reached dere, so mani losers liaos. i mean. people. tot mani of the seniors would be coming back but i guess dere were a few onli. oh well. Stood arnd hiding in the umbrella's and talking cock. den started de walk (Run). Bored bored bored. blah blah blah. was walking with Hong Kai and we were talking cock on the way. dat dumbass apparently left his lighter in the toilet when he smoked in the toilet earlier in the morning. and somehow it landed in Mr Ngien's hands. oh well. Good game i must say. and continued our walk. blah blah blah. reached a pavillion and saw daniel and de Gang dere. so juz stopped to have a chat wit dem and we went our way talking even more cock. behind us was a class whose enthusiasm can nvr be explained. fantastic pride. Or i shud say "semangat". How can jersey's be class T-Shirts??!! ok. off topic. back to my day. went back and prize giving. hmm. nlah blah. den followed Hong Kai take back his lighter and went to his house afterwards. go dere use his com while he bathed. blah blah blah. after took taxi back to my pri school. when i reached dere, dere were onli 4 of my old frens. den we waited and soon RuiQi and Yansoon joined us. went up to the hall to talk to Mdm Sajini den proceeded to the staff room to look for my MT tcher :) Went down to have our taste of Rulang primary canteen food. and guess wat. It is 100 times better than Yuhua food! shame on YOU YUHUA! soon Mei qi, Jia Hui, Melissa, Ying Jie joined us and we went up to the hall again to have another chat with Mdm Sajini. haha. went down again to eat. and here comes the party pooper. apparently some paikiah came into Rulang primary not to visit tchrs but to act big. sec 3 onli. behind him was a sec 2 boy. he just went arnd walking like one big cock. specificalli told Ying Jia and Jia jun not to look for trouble with them. but they jus had to have a staring incident. soon the fight was brought outside. had no choice but to call Vicky down. but when Vicky reached, dat pai kiah left oredi. jus good dat no one was harmed. oh well. had no choice but to follow Vicky home. muz follow him to thank Him for coming down on such short notice. jus lucky he didnt call more people down. or else muz follow more people home. haha. but yea. dat Pai kiah lives at my bloack onli. see him walking past my house everyday. confirm another Pah hai tong plyer. oh well. the world is full of gangsters nowadays. came back and nobody was home. so went to sleep all de way. woke up to update me blog. and here i am. will post pictures later. wait for Rui Qi add me msn first.
9:46 PM



oh well. so here i am updating again. this few days has jus been slack slack slack. so much of my work going down. guess dats sad. prelims english 2molo. the 2nd final exam b4 i officialli leave dis dumb school. nthng much happened. new english tcher. her name is "Foo". but i prefer to call her penguin lady. but she's nice. wun elaborate on her den. well. this few days feel so screwed at myself. guess i have to start changing once more. i dun wan to make another enemy. Why make another enemy when u can make another fren?prelims starting. next up is O's. time to stop using the comp so often and start studying often. muz try to balance my tyme with people. but i guess i cant do it myself. God will help me do it. Thank God for the sept holi's. cant afford to slack dat tyme anymore. muz pia liaos. guess wun be onlyne dat much. muz start becoming a man and control my lyfe.

GUess wad is this famous saying!!

> "Do not loudly bemoan the accidental overturning of a receptacle containing a whitish bovine nutritive liquid"
9:10 PM



And so here i am updating again. feeling so fucking bored nowadays. back to school after 2 days of Mc. yea. oh well. 2day is juz dose normal days i guess. new CME teacher. Mr shanmugam with a typical bangalah accent. The biggest irony is tat he is to teach us racial harmony, well. lets juz say for half an hour, he juz keeps blabbering on how we worship the damn americans and how we shouldnt do it. so yea. He ought to be shot. but heck. its better than Ms Cheong taking us for CME and transforming it to Chemistry lesson. sigh. well. Mrs Sunil is pregnant once again. and we had'nt been having proper English lessons for quite some time now. OH well. guess dere is nthng much we can do. Somehow Miss Lee is going on a cutting hair spree. these few days keep seeing lower sec boys getting their hair cut by Miss Lee. screw dat bitch la. Keep picking on lower sec people. oh well. wad to do?? short pants mah. but yea. i seriousli pity those boys. lets juz be thankful tat Miss Lee isnt a barber. OH well. feeling kinda sian now. been a while since i last saw her. didnt see her today either. oh well. screw the weekends dat is to come. gonna be stuck at my Grandma's house. listening to alien languages. Oh well. haven been doing serious work recently. juz slacking slacking slacking. i better get over all this a.s.a.p. i dun wanna screw my O's juz bcoz of my feelings for her. juz feeling so demoralised nowadays. back to square one again. This weekend is going to be veri SIANZ in block letters.
10:14 PM



today sick den nvr go school. woke up and have lunch and went back to sleep. woke up agn to hv dinner and here i am. screw it all. its juz difficult. i cant get rid of my feelings for her. oh well.
8:36 PM



Oh well. tot today will be good and guess wat. got busted by dat damn parvathy coz of my hair. u watch it u bitch. i am going to sue u for not coming to our lessons when u r supposed to. u think u so hardworking isit? u fatass shorty bitch. we were forced to escape and we got to run arnd the school for one day. oh well. but i got to admit. it was damn fun. haha. hide in the toilet. hide at the new block. oh well. feelin so damn sick now. 2 more months to go and i am free of the clutches of this school. i will leave this place of sad memories. juz 2 more months to go. And so yea. been thinking abt it. i feel so dumb nowadays. chasing after something dat wun happen in the first place. and since she wun make a choice. i will do it myself. i will set myself free of all this. i still have a life to continue leading. and i will make sure i do it to God's standards. no time to stop and fall over these things. maybe in the future. maybe.

"It was bcoz of you dat i became someone i swore myself not to be. And it happened without me knowing it."
6:32 PM



dots dots and more dots. dun know wat i am doing anymore i guess. been such a busy week i forgot to even slow down and think abt why i am doing all these things. oh well. went to Vincent house today for small grp and yea. had fun dere playing table tennis. but yea. i learnt quite alot. Like wad Zhong Li said. "Moral value is not doing when people are around, It is doing it when people are all NOT around" . i guess none of us can be perfect. the more we try to be perfect, the more things get screwed up. oh well. juz gif it all to God bahs. He knows best. Back to school 2moro. but thank God we have an easy day to start the week. P.E! here i come!
11:02 PM



fantastic. my stupidity is going way off the richter scale. nvr been so humiliated in my life b4. screw it all. how am i suppose to face the world again? screw it all. oh well. going to sch now. after tat will be going out. so yea.
9:42 AM



screw it all. now den do i realise how stupid i truly am. this past week. i dunno wad i have been doing. lets juz say it was luck. but now do i realise i am the world's biggest joke. Why did i even bother to chase her? just fuck this world to hell. my stupidity has juz leveled up. i have reached the highest level of stupidty. no one can beat my stupidity. juz fuck off la Nathan. i am disgusted with u. u sick mother fucking jerk.
3:31 PM



Nathan u loser!! i hate YOU!! i hate you you asshole!! u can behave so crazily and be yourself in class. But in front of her. u are juz another guy!! go screw urself la. damn. feeling so fucked up now. screw the world with me in it
8:53 PM



yea. school sux yea. 2day was juz those normal screwed up days. had chemistry for the first 2 periods. B-O-R-I-N-G! so yea. went to see the notice board and saw Mr Loh Ai. with his royal orders for me and Vicky to move the dumb notice board. reason? Because it was blocking the Yuhua SIGN!! screw him la. And yea. He scolded Mdm Lalitha stupid. so yea. wads wit him anw. and more of those screwed up boring lessons. and yea. after sch went out to buy some stuff and blah blah blah. didnt go self study coz its a waste of time. Mdm Kum claimed tat the prelim paper was a common test for all of us. so yea. if it was a common test paper. why are we given the paper even before self study? making it so easy to Cheat! but its ok i guess. its a dumb sch. so yea. dumb school produce dumb students. and yea. might get screwed by the tchers 2molo but who cares? its not like im scared of dem. still remembered the time i fought with Mdm Kum in lesson. totalli ASS WHOPPIN! had a great time seeing her get pissed off and scolding her childish and all dose rubbish. blah blah blah. so yea. studied after school and got too tired and fell asleep while waiting for someone. OH! 2molo have O lvls Oral. WHEE! gotta try my best. haha. and yea. For "yOU" , i wanna tell u something. U cannot stop people from spreading rumours, but u can stop the rumours from getting to u : ) But yea. i hope i can be ur listening ear if u would allow me yea? oh well. gonna get some shut eye b4 dinner. which is arnd 30mins later. WHEE! Be back 2nite at arnd 9pm ::)
7:02 PM



Amazing. juz realised dat i accidentalli disabled the title thing. now all me post no title. so yea. let me continue using a "dot" den. oh well. surfing through friendster and realised how far back my ego is. saw so mani profiles. man. 35/45 pic is of themself. feelign so damn depressed. haha. so yea. like i was saying, my chinese teacher promised to buy pizza if i got b3 for mother tongue, well. the results? we got pizza. but pizza crackers la. and quite alot of snacks. haha. i dun blame her i guess. tats being practical. haha. i mean, even if she bought real pizza. i wouldnt have eat it. so damn full after reccess. haha. so yea. school continues. everyday is just a long struggle. somehow i keep staying back everyday just to catch up on my studies. considering the fact that i used to grab every opportunity juz to go home in the past. how people change i guess. well. i am now enjoying so mani extra periods every week. i am the onli one in class not retaking my mother tongue O's. haha. so yea. now juz do my work during MT lesson den. oh well. been a while since i last msged someone seriousli. now everyday go home oso no one msg me. so yea. wun be wasting my time on my hp anymore. i cant take my phone la. i wanna change it!!! but after O's la. lol. oh well. today stayed back in school. went to eat first. and screw the cat who kept pestering me. i gave up 3 of my chicken juz for him. yea. a "him". 2 big dangling balls on his ass and showing it proudly to me. oh well. went back to school and studied. well. Nizam talked to me and asked whether i wanted to go back and play a match for dem. but heck. 2 sept. i have prelims. so yea. decided to drop the idea. but the benefits are quite good. last yr the boys earned 120 bucks in juz a day. how nice. i can do so mani things with 120 bucks. but my results can earn me more money in the long term run. haha. oh well. "she" added me in msn and found out that she has been reading my blog. haha. so yea. HELLO!!! WHY U KEEP GOING OFFLINE AND ONLINE!! haha. guess u read wat i wrote in the past huh. haha. man. gotta take more pictures of myself. been a while since i last done dat. taking pics. oh well. good past i guess. man. i write so mani things on this blog of mine. how useful a blog can be. haha.
9:08 PM



Oh yea. i guess i will juz put a "." at every title of my entry. why do i ever bother to rack my brains for a title? Oh yea. this few days. so mani things happened.
Lemme recall:

I got b3 for mother tongue.

hmmmm. ... nothing much liaos i guess. LOLX man. still remember the time when i saw my results. i saw the wrong one an i tot i got C5. haha. and Vicky corrected me and said i got b3. I was like " I GOT A B3 EVERYONE!!! I GOT A B3!!!" and i start jumping around the school . so yea. no more mother tongue lessons for the rest of de year! lucki. can catch up on work during dat time i guess. juz lucki. But yea. it was God who helped me through it all. still remembered tat it was still God who gave me the last 15mins to finish up one comprehension. And yea. i had this strong feeling he slowed down time for me. Literalli. and i was so damn scared i couldnt finish it. haha. guess i can depend totalli on him for my O's. not totalli la. muz work for it. haha. so yea. decided to give up the idea on chasing anyone now. guess its useless i guess.

Why? Factor number:
1) we come from 2 totalli different religion and im not planning to gif mine up.

2) Even if i do the above in no 1, i seriousli doubt we will last. Different schools when i graduate, NS and all those stuff.

3) i don know her well. So its gonna be damn awkward.

4) knowing the above mention 3 points would happen, why bother going into a relationship and getting hurt again.

So yea. preciseli why i decided to give up any ideas on chasing anyone. But yea. deep in my heart. i know dere are still people out there who treasure my presence in their life. and no point spending time on a relationship dat wun last.

Oh and Jurina, u r lucki ya dumbass. haha. no time to post anything on u. haha!
yea. been so busy so yea. no time i guess. and P.S. i love blue ranger!! not pink ranger! hahahahahahahahhahahahahhaha! Wo xi huan lan she de, bu shi fen hong she de. haha. and for ur info, dere is no purple ranger. unless u wanna be purple. and trust me. i wun be dere to see it. haha! wait. did i block u on msn? hold on ah. hmmmm. YEAPS!! I BLOCKED JURINA ON MSN!! blocked rate, i blocked 45 out of 95 people on msn! including Jurina. WHEEE!
12:02 AM



Damn. Why do i always have to enter a title juz to post an entry. Screw tat function. Heck. Juz realised i busted 2 days of holiday on the com. HAHA! needless to say with the amount of entries made in juz 2 days. Oh well. got 2 plasters on me fingers. tot the burning hot plate was cool. and happen to grab it with my bare hands. well done NATHAN! ur stupidity has gone up another lvl. one more time and u "LEVEL UP" . Oh well. downloaded lots of games today. some were quite fun. yea. lame but fun. juz like me i guess. oh well. back to school 2molo. not realli diggin it. damn. 6am wake up. Its mad la. but heck. few more months. and after my O's. I'LL SMASH DAT DAMN ALARM CLOCK! but wads goign to smash tat biological alarm clock inside me? nah. not staynig to find out. its a dillema i guess. shud i ask her out? or shud i not? its not like i know her feelings towards me. i mean. getting rejected totalli sux. heck. and the results?! i'd drop it. forget it i guess. its not like we are going to last or somethin. the scar tat my ex did to me still remains dere i guess. it totalli serves as a warning. haha. i guess i have to learn to be more optimistic nowadays. screw the world. decisions to make everyday. and all i am is in the begginner stage. damn.

"i'm not saying its a smart decision, But it is the right one." adapted from the movie Atlantis.
10:14 PM



Ever had these mornings when u wake up, everyone is sleeping at its arnd 5am. utter silence around u. and u wake up and prepare a delicious breakfast. isnt it so damn peaceful? Juz love these mornings. makes me realise how beautiful the world can be. Oh well. National day holiday 2day. lucki us i guess. had breakfast with my mum after so long. haha. oh well. juz came online to update me blog. heck.
1:44 PM



Oh well. Went to pit-stop for a veri delicious dinner. But got busted when we missed de fireworks. Oh well. like wad i would always say. @good game@ but heck. the food taste heavenli. wouldnt wanna talk more or i'd be advertising. dat sux i guess. but yea. saw alot of yuhua frens dere. Ema, surina and stanley. HHA! party pooper i guess. Oh yea. BUsted 5.20 bucks on a slice of cake from baker'z inn. haha. heavenli. haven eat yet lars. waiting for the right moment i guess. haha. Oh guyz. link me if u wan. the comand is given. TATA!
11:00 PM



Its juz stupid i guess. Creating a blog juz for the fun of it. Its not like i am going to post stuff on it everyday. My stupidity is overpowering me. Well. going out to see fireworks in a few hours time. dunno whos going. but heck, juz go for the fun of it i guess. not saying its a smart choice. haha. looking for a patrick doll for Zhong Yang. damn. so difficult to find. Juz seem to have this in thing for toys nowadays. haha. not saying im playing with dem. but its always quite cool to place it on ur table or somethin. damn, i am having this "super robot monkey team hyper force go!" song stuck in my head. pissing me off. heck. ystd had national day celebration. its a total waste of me time. but heck. The girl named cherry who sang totalli showed me a new meaning to "shameless". but heck. its her face that is thrown away. haha. not my tai chi. HAHA! oh well. toodleS!
11:30 AM