Its been a pretty blah day today. With the great great exception of an uber cool thing!! I finally got my devil may cry game!! And guess what!!?? Its Devil may CRY 4!!!!! This is the character u start playing out first. His name is Nero!! bloody handsome rite???? I wonder why they draw him until so handsome. Why God never draw me until as handsome as that?? LOL!!! *Coughs...Rolls eyes* ANW! This is the second character in the game, this dude's name is Dante. The original character of Devil may cry. --> He used to be very good looking too. Age caught up with him i guess? But i wonder if i would still be as good looking as him in the future?? *Shrugs shoulder and shakes head* Oh and you get to fight cool demons like this!---> I am starting to sound like a nerd and game freak. But trust me. This is the first time in my blog i am actually talking bout games. I mean people, come on! Its not like i am featuring maplestory here rite?? bleahs.
Oh! Did i mention? I got Grand theft auto San andreas too! haha. coolios!! 2 great games in a day. There goes studying. haha.
One question has been stuck in my mind now. What do i want? My mind has decided to not have anymore girlfriends. And its not like i am going to wanna get to know other girls. So, why am i still so bothered bout fashion and looking good? Now dun get me wrong here that im obsessed with my looks. I am very well aware that i am not someone with crazy fucking OMG heart wrenching good looks. Just an average dude. But i still dun really get why i am concerned about looking good? oh, maybe its just wanting to be presentable?
haiz.....
7:57 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I guess in life, some things are very weird. I guess all my life, i have figured out things that i came across. But after having so many past relationships, i still cannot figure out girls. They have a thinking far so far different from guys. Now know this is that its not that i dislike girls. I have girls who are close to me too and i love them dearly as my friends. But then again, i find them hard to figure out.
So then, lets start from weird ex gf's of mine shall we? I do admit in some relationships i really do not give a damn. Actually, most of them. So i had one ex who kept complaining that i didnt give a damn about her. She allegedly complained that i wouldnt get jealous when she talked to other guys. So, being a bf who wanted her to shut the hell up. I asked more, be a little more concerned about her. What happened? She told her friends i was too controlling. which i thought was bloody stupid.
So then, all my life, there was this argument i can never win against girls. And this particular argument starts with the girl asking " AM i fat? ". I hate it that when i tell them they are not fat, they would argue that they are fat. And if i give in to them and say they are fat, they would take it as im insulting them. Its like a death trap!! We can never win this argument. So i have learnt the art of this death trap. It is to, DIVERT THE TOPIC OR DUN ANSWER!! Just as i am typing this entry, Ying ping just asked me on msn if she's fat. damn. And i just lost another argument.
Talking to ying ping now. She on msn same as real life sia. haha. In real life is blur hear wrong things. On msn is read wrong things. haha!! But start chatting like chat for 2 hours le sia. lol! Talk to her like damn funny sia. keep laughing and laughing. Do fashion checks den intro fashion styles for her coz her current one too ah lian. haha. Intro her to a fashion. I edit the pic for her. although very jia pa lang, but kinda suit her i think? But talking to her ah, realise we got alot of things in common. We both got cheated before and we both are set on staying single!! haha. And still got more thigns in common. haha. This is the fashion i intro'ed to her! haha! ----> WAHAHHAHAHAH!! Nice rite nice rite nice rite?? Like polytechnic style sia!! haha. Might suit her coz she looks very polytechnic like. lol!!!
Which comes to think of it, temijin birthday party this saturday. Maybe friday go out with ying ping, shi min, edwin and edmund again go buy temjin bday present. haha. den sat is temjin bday party le. PRESENTS!!! GAAAHH!!
okay!! i decided to add on more funny quotes from this website i found. really funny sia
->“Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months.”
->“I love it when someone insults me. That means that I don’t have to be nice anymore. ”
->“I’m not that desperate and you’re not that lucky.”
->Don’t think Arnold can be a cold turkey. He can be quite humorous at times, like when he said, “I love Thanksgiving turkey… it’s the only time in Los Angeles that you see natural breasts.”
->“Coexistence… what the farmer does with the turkey - until Thanksgiving.”
->“My cooking is so bad my kids thought Thanksgiving was to commemorate Pearl Harbor.”
->“God gave us our relatives; thank God we can choose our friends.”
NITES PEOPLE!! : )
12:17 AM
Monday, July 28, 2008
Today is some shitty day. class suppose to start at 9am. At 8.30am Ming Li sms'ed me to see if i was awake. her sms woke me up. And i was freaking late. Went into class. Lecturer kpkb. Den after that i go out den come back den i was sms'ing lecturer come over again to kao pei me. Say what is either i very late for class, not in class, or very busy with other things in class. I think thats bullshit lors. I late onli 10 mins most of the time. Where got VERY VERY VERY late?
Okay, classes went very pretty blah. Highlight was lunchtime. Met hector and neng wei and sq den we went to alumni to eat. So coz i was having my core competency test today. So while waiting for my food to come i just study my EM3A. So i got stuck at Linear equations so i asked Hector and neng wei to see if they knew. Hector straight away say dunno. But Neng wei leis, stare very long at the book den say he dunno. Den i say lors, "If you dunno how to do just say! You just wasted precious seconds of my time studying. I could learn alot in the few seconds you know??"
Den we continued our crappy argument until a point i jokingly told him to "Shut the fuck up!! (STFU)". Den he came out with another senseless argument. He said "No no no! You shouldnt say shut the fuck up. You should say Fuck the world!" i was like wad the fuck? Here i am telling him to shut the fuck up, and there he is telling me to fuck the world. His argument...When you say fuck the world, the pain is evenly distributed to everyone. So its fair! Wad the fuck? The problem...I want HIM to shut the fuck up only. Why would i wan to scold everyone? hahahahha. Neng wei ah neng wei. If you are reading this, you just made another senseless argument. well done brother.
You always thought i was stronger. I may have failed but i have loved you from the start.
I didnt know my phone can do cool cool edits. Did this edit on my phone. Coolios!!
Nites people!! : )
9:36 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
I should just watch my words here on my blog as if i dun watch it, i might just end up with the cops at my door coz i said something wrong on my blog.
So then, i was on the bus on my way to church. Changed to bus 171. Those who go orchard too much shud know that 171 does go to orchard. So every sunday, the bus would be filled with fillipinos. Or Phillipinos. whichever way u spell it. Well, i have no grudges against them. On some weeks i get some of them leaning on me like im their boyfriend. But today was absolutely weird weird weird. It was squeezy as usual. I was just standing at the door leaning at the pole. Around me were all fillipino maids. Den all of a sudden someone hands grabbed my ass and kinda touched it very erotically for a split second. I quickly turned to look who did that. Then lo and behold! Blur blur phillipino faces looking at me. Thinking i shudnt make a big fuss, i just continued listening to music and quickly got down when my stop came.
So then, its a very weird feeling now that this happened. Its a very violating feeling. But then again, its quite cool that someone actually molested me. Like heck, im not sexy or wad. But its not everyday that a guy gets molested rite?? But then again, why is not a super chio bu molest me? damn.
Exams in 3 weeks time!!! JIA YOU!! hahahaha!!
11:05 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Okay!! So then. Yesterday was friday. Went out with Patrick, hector, sq. "Studied" in school. lol!! End up never study. We were talking cock den after chat with ming li on msn den keep exchanging blog links and friendster profiles. See which hunk more handsome and which chio bu more pretty. lol!! Den our study session turned into have fun session! haha.
So at around 7pm, we proceeded to Botak Jones!! One of the most famous western stalls in singapore. Price was okay. Reasonable. I would consider it cheap actualli. haha. Sorry, lousy megapixels. haha.
aaaahh... These are the food served at botak jones. Highlight was Sq's order. "U-Crazy-What!". If you ask me, its really crazy. Price is $14.50. 3 crazy beef patties. Tasty it is if u ask me. Hector's fish and chip. ->
Haha!! At least we managed to finish our food.
Look how sick Sq looks after finishing his 3 king sized beef patties. I didnt finish my fries. You know why? How the hell can you finish up the fries if Patrick keeps throwing fries on your plate???!! This is Mr Patrick--> He's a drunkard. damn...
And he likes Soup with rice., Even after finishing up Botak jones Cajun chicken, he continues on to Rice and soup!
After Botak Jones we proceeded to Jurong east to slack. Then after that i went to changi airport to find my parents for supper. reached home at 2am. damn.,
I guess having a relationship at a young age is like sending teenagers to fight an adults battle. In war, we send adults to battles. Not youngsters. I guess thats the reason why teenage relationships mostly do not work out. They cant tame the enemy. I guess thats the reason why none of my relationships can never work out. I cant tame the enemy. This enemy aint easy to tame i guess. I guess i am not going to fight this war of love until im ready. Why rush into an adult's warfare and get hurt like an idiot?
2:43 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
School has been pretty blah nowadays. Starting to get into the bad books of my TP lecturer. haha. Was caught reading newspaper and eating breakfast in class then never bring my book. End up he made me go take my book from the locker. lol. But then again, he has been pretty patient.
I just gotta start taking life more easy now. haha. I have been dreaming fast paced stuff almost every night. haha. Dreamt i was driving a lamboghini last night. haha. Den i realised life has been so fast paced nowadays. sigh.
But then again, i am a slacker. I cant keep up with the fast paced life of singapore. I always end up very late or i end up absent. gaaah. Oh well.
Have you been so filled with God that you dun cant even realise your mistake anymore? Have you been so "righteous" that you think you can never make any mistake? I gave into you and accepted it as my own fault because i respected you as a friend. What did i do wrong? Nothing! Bullshit!
11:57 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I guess its just human nature that they tend to throw away one thing the moment they get something new or better. I guess the reason why people throw me away the moment they get something better is because i am not worthy to be kept. I guess i am not good enough of a fren that people shud keep me?
Im very scared of a relationship. I really am. I dun have enough strength to play that game of love again.
9:47 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
oh wells. 1am. didnt go school today. Slept at 4am yesertday so obviously i couldnt wake up. When i woke up it was like 1pm in the afternoon. So heck la. Just go get an mc. haha. Xin hao called me just now and wanted to intro me to some ngee ann hot babe. Well, sori dude. Im sleeping. Sleep is more important to me than hot girls.
i still dun get why people still think of me as a gangster. I sit on the bus and some loser secondary school kid gangsters comes in and try something funny with me. Not like staring at me is going to make u stronger than me. And not like having a backup of 6 kids is going to scare me. I mean come on people. Lets grow up shall we? Singapore is way too safe to have the need of being in a gang anymore.
I dun sms alot. Only on occasions den do i sms people. So then, been chatting with Venus quite alot. Interesting i guess. haha. Interesting sms buddy i guess. haha. hmmm, guess shes the second girl i knew from friendster. But i do find her quite tanned. And thats good!! I like tanned girls. which reminds me, i shud start to sun tan more. haha. Been slacking at home for way too much. haha.
Come to think of it, i kinda miss my secondary school. Not the people, the chicken chop there. yummy sia. haha. okay okaY!! have to be patient!! Teachers day go back dere and eat till i drop. haha!!
I am viewing someone's friendster. Looking at this dude i started feeling uncomfortable. He is certainly goodlooking. But i guess his ego is kinda going off the scale. ahh idk. Just go view his profile and decide for urself. http://profiles.friendster.com/68199087
12:34 AM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Went out with Patrick, hector and sq and ching yee yesterday. We met at 8pm like that. Ate at cineleisure. Drove to fetch ching yee after his work ended. haha. Den the journey on the car begins.
First we went to geylang, looking at the prostitues is like having all the ngee ann girls line up in a row. All blood pretty one. Den went down the car. Ching yee and patrick keep getting pulled by prostitutes. lol. Lucky onli 1 or 2 touch me only. But its kinda sad to see them so pretty become prostitutes. After a long walk at geylang, we finally reached mong kok dim sum. ate den left for east coast park.
from geylang to east coast park usually take less than 1 hour rite? We took 2 hours to reach east coast park. Lol! We ended up at changi airport first! lol! Den i bladder canot tahan so use some high class toilet. haha. Den left for another round of detours and speeding around singapore. Finally reach east coast park.
And wad the hell, see so many couples inside the car having sex. Some use newspaper cover, some do in van, some use the condensation cover the windows. lol. Naughty naughty singaporeans sia. haha. Got some taxi driver got lucky with his passenger there too. haha.
Den after that each of us took turns to drive the car. THANKS PATRICK FOR LETTING US DRIVE THE CAR WITHOUT LICENSE!! haha. So fun sia drive without license. haha. Den hector first time drive already speed liao. But quite pro sia. haha. AND DAMN HENG LA!! After i drove i park the car, den realised in front got police car. Thoght they were going to screw our asses for driving without license. Lucky we chill chill den the police left us alone. haha.
Den highlight of the day, we were on our way home, whole stretch of road empty. We freaking drove at 170km/h. The wind outside was gay. Put hand out of window my whole hand got pushed back. Den WAH LAH!! The bumper dunno for wad bloody reason dropped. HONG GAN swa!! After that we safe driving le. But i guess we were very blessed yesterday. If the bumper nvr drop we would have continued at 170km/h. But coz the bumper drove we safe driving. end up got traffic police in front. Heng sia. I rather the bumper drop than patrick license kena kantong sia. License cost him 2-3k plus. Bumper only 1k most. which one better? But we all learn a very big lesson. Never speed!
But thanks patrick for the great day yesterday. It was really fun. First time i sit in a speeding car. haha. And great job on keeping your cool when the bumper dropped. Its great character : ) I understand its very stressful this kind of things happen. But i learnt alot of lessons that night. Must keep my cool when things go bad : ) THANKS PATRICK ONCE AGAIN!! : )
Okay!! Miss Venus told me to do a quiz on her blog. So here it is : )
1. what are you most dissapointed about? Nothing? I dun hold high expectations.
2. where will you go if someone sponsers you a tour ticket? thailand. I realy miss the kids at Yun hua chun
3. what's your favourite thing to do? Slack at coffeeshop with fren chit chat
4. do you think money can buy happiness? hmm, temporary happiness yes. Not long term one.
5. if you can have one dream to come true, what will it be? I wan to be like my dad.
6. do you believe you can survive without money? yeaps. i spent very little
7. have you ever played an instrument? guitar
8. if you win $1 million, what will you do? get a car.
9. what do you think of yourself? Normal average dude. With the exception of the nick friendster king.
10. list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you 1.Shes tanned and cute 2.Shes caring 3.and sweet
11. what makes you happy? sleep
12. what type of people you hate most? dunno?
13. where do you see yourself 10 years down the road? In my dads path
14. if you have a superpower, what will it be? I wanna have the power of producing MC's anytime i wan. SKIp SCHOOL!
15. what do you think is the most important thing of your life? Friends. Let be realistic people.
16. if its the end of the world, what will it be your last wish? I wish the next place im going is heaven
17. if you have a chance to choose, will you want to go back in time? when will it be? Before secondary school. I w
18. which anime character you like the most? Gaara?
19. are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her? If i really like her alot
20. what's your favourite song, currently? Lollipop - lil wayne.
Nights people! sori for long post.
11:05 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
It 5am now. lol! Just reached home after one whole day. Lets start from beginning shall we? Went to school, had normal classes. Den after that patrick got the car and we took a ride around ngee ann and had to spend quite some time parking the car. funny shit i tell ya. haha. End up ju hua had to park the car. lol. Took a little bit of pics in the car.
After school went back home and had a little nap then went out again to watch movie with edwin, Shi min and Ying Ping. haha. Met at around 7pm plus then end up chose a movie that starts at 11pm. Watched hellboy 2. Movie was okay okay onli actually : ) Den the movie ended around 1am. All 4 of us went to mac to sit down and chill out. Chit chat and talk. haha. Talk about ghost and stuff. fun sia. Around 4am like that den we left. haha. I realised ying ping ah, she really very very blur blur one sia. The moment we came out of cineleisure we knew it was going to rain le, den after we walk a distance then she realised its drizzling. 0.0! But very cute la she, so blur one sia. haha. Den Edwin met his fren den his friend ask why he suddenly start hanging out with ah lians. lol!! He tot that ying ping and shi min are ah lians. lol!! So edwin and me walked behind them both then realised they really very ah lian sia!! see the pics!! --->
Quite ah lian rite? Sori ah onli can take back view and kinda dark. The road was kinda dark so yeah. But den again, shi min and ying ping both once you know them really not ah lian at all sia. Very sweet girls actually. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Okay!! Enough bout the day. Its 5am and my brains arent working very well. But i guess it wasnt a good start to my day yesterday either. Early in the morning fight with my dad coz of my dressing. haiz. kinda stupid sia. Not like i look very gangster the way i dress. And please la Dad, i am a guy la, show my legs also nvm one rite. Not like i am a girl or something like that. Dun expect me to dress the way u want me to dress please.
5:13 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Stupid swa!! ._. Im too short too short too short!! Grow tall grow tall grow tall!! Grow big grow big grow big!! yay!! JIA YOU!!! : )I love you Mr 5Kg weights : )
I usually bulshit quite a bit in class. Stepped on my own tail today. Went into TP class den lecturer made a comment that everyone did their online quiz excpet one guy. Then i started shouting "DEBAR HIM CHER!! DEBAR HIM!!". Kept demanding that Mr dear lecturer debarred that idiot who didnt do his online quiz. well, we all know who is that idiot now.
TP lab test went bad today. Went in with a bullshitting mood. Sat down at my table and tempered with the machines. Well i anyhow plug the oscilloscope and to my horror i heard a very audible "POOF!". And surprise!! That dang machine spoilt and refused to show any other reading. Relax people...its under warranty : )
Its not that i dun care, its that i dun wanna get involved with your petty little poltical problems.
I think a change of fashion once in a while is pretty interesting and i finally made my fashion change today!! Really liked it and im pleased with my dressing!! : ) Upload a few photos and im getting me nap : )
7:38 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Surprised qi wen tagged me to do the quiz on her blog. haiz. okay, do lors.
I'm doing Qiwen's quiz now. yay.....
1.) The last person who tag you is.. Qiwen? Then theres mohawk guy mr Hector tan
2.)Your relationship with him/her is: I'll just talk bout qi wen since she asked me to do this quiz. hmm, church friends : )
3.) Your 5 impression of him/her: Bubbly, cute way of talking, talkative, interesting? special personailty : )
4.)The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you: She encouraged me when i was down : ) Thanks girl!! : )
5.)The most memorable thing that he/she has said to you: I forgot le? But she encourages me alot : )
6.)If he/she becomes your lover, you will: erm...never thought of it? But then again, lover means i love that person. So i will love her lors -_-
7.)If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: erm, shes fine la. Nothing much to change 8.)If he/she becomes your enemy, you will: leave her alone? I do that to my enemies : )
9.)The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is : Get her to do this quiz back bout me : )
10.)Your overall impression of him/her is: omg!! bloody cute way of talking. Like chattering sia. But cute la.
11.)How do you think people around you will feel bout you? dunno? dun care? You gotta love me people : )
12.)On the contrary, the things you hate about yourself are: im too cool ._.
13.)The most ideal person you want to be is: My dad
14.)For people that care and like you, say something to them: Watch hellboy 2 with me.
Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you : ) 1.) Qi wen! Muahahhaa 2.) Ming Li 3.) Sq 4.) Hector 5.) Venus 6.) Jamie 7.) Patrick if he reads this 8.) Ai Jie sister!! 9.) Jeremy 10.)Nurul? Let me read your blog laaaaaa!!
Its kinda late now. 1.20am : ) just finished clearing out my cupboard. Been clearing out shirts i have been wearign since sec 1? damn laod of shirts. But funny how i wore branded clothes and i dun even know it? like say i used to wear armani exchange clothes. hated those shirts. Den there is a prada bag which i found. Its for girls anw. But then again, PRADA SIA!! 0.0!! Oh well, but i guess its time to throw throw throw!! : )
Its time for a fashion makeover : ) im going to follow patrick's style of 3/4 pants. But im keeping my top style and converse shoe style. : ) gotta get a new bag. Feel kinda wasted i bought that puma bag for $120 den use for like 2 weeks then nvr use le. lol. think i gotta use. That Seinheisser headset oso use for like 5 times then dunno throw where le. Think of it, heart pain sia!! okok, better start using it le : )
Got my laptop back. They changed my mother board. yay!! so fast now : ) 3 cheers for warranty!! The whole repair cost $700+. But i pay $0 coz its under warranty!! yay!! Then got my phone back too. yay!!
I just realised i cant be bothered bout relationship stuff anymore. Now i dun even bother searching or a girl thats my type. Like heck, see a pretty girl then thats the end of story. I dun go and think more than that anymore. yea, my frens like to go girl checking, but i just play along with em. Deep down i really have lost interest for such relationship stuffs. Den i realise i have been much more carefree and happier now. W/o girl problems i really am a much happier chap : ) No headache crap and heart ache bullshit. 3 cheers for singlehood!! HIP HIP HURRAY!!
tmr wed, gotta go school to do Entrepreneur class presentation. damn. friday gonna go out with patrick and gang again. But this time patrick's driving!! yay!! Finally can get a ride to town instead of taking public transport. 3 cheers for automobiles!! HIP HIP HURRAY!!
1:19 AM
Monday, July 14, 2008
Not been updating coz i seriously forgot about it. lol. Or maybe coz i was too busy with other stuff??
Yesterday was sunday, after church was suppose to watch movie, but church people all like maybe maybe, den end up nvr watch. lol! But got my phone fixed, went to collect it today. haha. And i woke up today to find myself sick again. Went to polyclinic, and doctor offered me a 2 day mc. TAKE IT LORS!!! WOOOHOOO!!! Was grinning my way out of the polyclinic to get a 2 days mc. haha!!
You really thought i was running away when i made the decision to stay single? Whatever made you conclude that i was running away? Im merely protecting myself. And isit any of your problem that i stay single? Look bitch, who i like is none of ur business dat you shud be stepping in?
I was going home today when some ex convict stopped me. Well, he greeted me with a nice smile. Asked me if ex convicts deserved a second chance in life. I was like OF COURSE THEY DO!! : ) And when he told me to buy bookmarks at 2 dollars each, i kind of thought it was a scam. But then again, maybe if its true, that 2 bucks may mean more to him that me. So i bought one to support him. And on top of the bookmark are 2 sayings. WHen i read those sayings, i smiled. It was a very nice saying, made that 2 bucks spent worth well considering i paid 2 bucks for words of wisdom from ex convicts. : ) Shall end this entry with the 2 sayings.
1. ) A fellow who does things that counts doesn't usually stop to count them.
2. ) Its nice to be important, but its more important to be nice
Goodnight people! : )
8:43 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Spongebob and patrick are both dumb. But they are both happy. Squidward knew more. He ended up sad. And got bored of life. Maybe thats a much more deeper meaning to that funny shit show. What i dunno wont hurt me.
Seriously, i made a mistake when i pulled God into my teenage relationships. I was just reading quite alot of people's blog. SO i was just wondering, if God approved of teenage relationships and wanted it to happen, why are our parents objecting? Or isit coz God doesnt really approve of it thats why our parents never approved? I dun think we shud be dragging God into relationships and claiming that he approved of it? Or does he actually approve of it? If God approved of it, what then can our parents say? Maybe thats why my parents never really approved of me having a relationship till now, coz God haven given his approval yet? aahhh idk. Life is full of shitty questions.
Everything in the world is going at soaring prices. Today our good old PM said that he wouldnt increase our wages as in might cause another round of inflation and we had to stay competitive. but then again, how can we blame him for this move. Its sad to say...reasonable. Everything rises, except wages. But then again, if we had to really think about this problem, there really isnt much of a solution? Raise the wage and inflation occurs. Keep the same wages and suffer as prices go higher.
Considering that things are going much more worser, its pretty reasonable to come to conclude that the end of the world is coming. Our good old friend that we have been learning about, Mr Beast with tatoo number 666 is on his way to rock this world. hmmm, its kinda encouraging if wad i had to conclude is true. Which means i do not have to die : )
End with this photo i found on patricks friendster profile. taken when we went out to orchard. Funny day. haha.
7:39 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Went out with patrick, hector and sq. Last minute one. haha. called me in the afternoon and jio me out. So go lors. friends come first. haha. Went looking for SQ and hector de pants. Still deciding if i shud buy that Ralph Lauren polo Tee. Pink or black? haiz. headache swa. haiz. Need a fashion make over. Stuck to one stlyle. time to change : )
I duno if i shud be like this. But im happy this way!! : )
If i had a wish, i dun want my emotions : )
i listened to the new song by Fergie - labels or love. It has a very very nice meaning to it. I especially liked one phrase and it goes => " Relationships are often so hard to tame A Prada dress has never broken my heart before"
Very nice phrase that i liked alot! haha. Very very very true indeed. Relationships are fucking hard to to tame. Yeaps. Tame is the word. haha. I rather not tame it. haha. I'd leave it alone so it wont try to hurt me : )
Not really satisfied with my current skin. haha. Think i change it again to something nicer : )
End with some photos taken today. haha. See ya!!
11:06 PM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Changed a new skin : ) Spongebob love people!! Hurrayy for spongebob!! wahahhahahhaa.
And i still haven bought my spongebob T-shirt. damn damn damn damn.
i like my life now :) Slow and steady. Not taking anything seriously and just chilling everyday. I hope this kind of life last. I like things like this. No girls around me that i shud care for. But i do have girl - friends la though. haha. But its really nothing much : )
I guess being with guy friends is certainly more fun than hanging out with girls. Not someone who talks well with girls actually. I like going out with my guy frens more. MOre crazy and fun. haha.
Was thinking of posting the video of me doing pumping in the middle of ngee ann city. but then again, i dun think i shud be doing that. haha. Its kinda emberassing?
haha!! : )
11:53 PM
its around 5am in the morning now. Something woke me up. Something slapped me on my back very hard. But i woke up only to find myself alone in my room. Its not the first time this kind of thing has happened to me. And after so long i finally felt fear.
I then on my room lights and saw my quiet time diary where i always record my thoughts and bible verses. And i opened it. In it was a verse that has been in front of me but i never seemed to give a damn about it.
1 Peter 3:10 " For the scripture says, If you want a happy life and good days, Keep your tongue from speaking evil, And keep your lips from telling lies. Turn away from evil and do good. Work hard at living in peace with others. The eyes of the Lord watch over those who do right, and his ears open to their prayers. But the Lord turns his face against those who do evil. "
I have lost that life i should be living.
4:59 AM
Monday, July 07, 2008
i like SQ's post alot. humourous and simple. haha. makes you laugh. To think of it. i shud be posting more pics when i blog. my blog has too little pictures. : )
Hector has a nice blog too!! interesting post. cool!
Do check out both their blog. i linked them le : )
To think of it. I like it alot babe : ) I love you.
I need that spongebob T-shirt. haiz
10:13 PM
Haven been updating. Sory guys. Not that im busy. I kinda forgot i actually have a blog and forgot to update. Tags not replied coz i didnt come to my blog. paiseh. haha.
I mean seriously people. i dun give a damn. girls are just too troublesome for me. You can say i cant play that game of love or whatever. Your call. I am better the way i am now. Not giving a damn bout a girl or whatever. But i guess im better this way! The only way to not get hurt is not to care. So! Now that i dun have any girl that i actually care about, im happy! : )
Im very sleepy these few days. i dunno why sia. I think i need to get some sleep. But Su zhen all jio me go kopi at 429 again. Didnt want to go until Kai called me and asked me to go down. haiz. den go lors. But i am happy. I have friends who want to be with me and enjoy my company : )
hmm, life has been normal nowadays. School, slack, school, go out. Standard routine of my life. Going out with hector sq and patrick is fun i guess. Not to mention i freaking did push ups in the middle of ngee ann city with everyone walking around. But a dare is a dare. I lost then do lors. lol. BUt its fun i guess. : )
aaaahhh... i think i really have to agree on the phrase that "What i don't know won't hurt me". I guess sometimes what i wont know wont hurt me. Maybe i know too much bout things i get so hurt. So i shud just act stupid and maybe just dun know too much? haha.
hmm, i told someone that singlehood can be very fun but i can be lonely too. And its true. I cant help but feel lonely at times. But i guess i really have good frens who are guys to keep me company : ) NOw i dun feel so lonely!! hahaha.
Sidetrack now and some holy stuff. Relationship with God is one fucking big mess. BUt i guess my heart really does yearn for him. I have been throwing my temper at everyone in my family these few days. I just had no mood to hear anyone talk or lecture me. Threw my temper at mom and dad almost everyday. BUt i just wonder why they didnt scold me and say im a loser child. Before i slept yesterday they asked if they could pray for me. I almost cried. Im touched i guess. That people still care for me after i was such a jerk to them. Maybe that hole in my heart shud be filled by God and family. Not with slutty motherfucking bitches nor sweet bitches. But with family and God? I'll see : )
hmmm. Lemme see? Nothing much i guess. Brains not working very coz im just way too tired. haiz. crap, forgot i just told Su Zhen i am on my way to meet her now. See ya dudes!! : )
5:31 PM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Good day today. went school. go orchard afterwards. ate with parents supper after orchard. then back home. nothing special. I guess having a gf is like buying a car? We have a bad habit in ngee ann is that we like to look for girls way beyond our reach. So say, if i can afford a toyota, i stick to a toyota car. Why bother to go look for a BMW if i know i cannot afford it? Same way i dun go look for a girl way beyond my level when i know i cannot play that game of love with her. I guess i can only afford a honda type girl. But i know that i will be very happy with a honda car. : ) But i guess i am not very urgent for a car either. I guess i am just someone who goes by the logic in life. Have then have, dun have then dun have lor. haha! Anw, do you people realise that electricity bills are rising like mad? My bills doubled by 50% this month laaaa!! I listened to the dan and young show today and dan asked the listeners to send in sms'es to see if everyone bills are rising. And guess what? 10 out of 10 callers called to complain their bills all doubled! Why is this so? Someone went overseas for a month and she didnt even use electricity in her house for that month! Guess what? Her bills rose too!! Moral of story? No matter how much we use, its still bound to rise. So just use as much as i wan lors. haha! I admit i am changing for the worse i guess. And i am well aware of people who dun like my attitude. but who cares? : )
1:27 AM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
erm. yea. oh okay. anything you say ok? : ) I listen to you : )
school is pretty much stupid. Today was suppose to be from 8am to 5pm. Skipped afternoon classes and reached home at 1 plus. coolios. its slacking time : )
Going to go out with patrick, hector sq and maybe neng wei tmoro! wahahhaha. Gonna look for spongebob T-shirts and maybe some funny T-shirts? Like heck. I am missing out on 5 great movies and i still haven go watch any of em yet!!! 1) Get smart 2)Zohans 3) Wanted 4) Narnia 5)Hellboy 2
Sobs : (
Jia you Nathan!! Not going to give up now!! wooohooooo!!
Just this sudden highness i guess : ) No point being sad!! SMILE!!! : ) : ) : )
6:16 PM
Im so through and enough of this shit. I know i made a very wrong decision when i was very young. I know i was through and through a motherfucking bastard when i was younger. I was one of the jerks that people would nvr want to be friends with. I got tired of that life and i changed over. I am just going to be honest that i really do have a 80% evil heart in me. And only 20% of goodness. Even up till today. But i loved those around me and i tried to give you all my 20% of goodness.
Who appreciated? Who actually cared?? Why do people still give me those fucking same eyes that people gave me so many years ago?? Why isit that you people still look at me like a criminal like i do not deserve a chance at life again??
Was it any of your business that i dye'd my hair? Does it actually matter to any of you that you can judge me and my father bcoz of my hair? Are you idiots happy now that i dyed it back to black? DO i look more decent now?? ARE YOU IDIOTS HAPPY?
Who are you to judge me to say that i am bad now bcoz of my past?Yes no doubt i was fucking bad to the core in the past. BUt does it actually still mean i am that bad ass years ago? Did i not love you people and tried to give you my best? Does it mean i have to give you 100% goodness from me then you people are satisfied??
I am merely human. Please people. Spare me and leave me alone!! Please i beg you.! I am merely human and i have feelings. I felt heartbroken too when people called me a bastard child. I felt sad when people hated me. Den why are you treating me like i nvr once considered all your feelings? Did i not consider your feelings? I loved you people like my own brothers.
Isit then bcoz i loved thats why i am so broken inside? I loved those around me and some treated me like i can never make mistakes and fucked my life upside down the moment i make a mistake. Some treated me the same way as they treated me years ago and looked at me like a bastard child. Why are humans such cold creatures?
I am merely a young teenager who is bound to make mistakes at this stage of my life no matter how "good" i am. Please...please dun treat me like i can never make mistakes. I am Nathan, not Jesus. I am a sinner saved by grace. Not a God who save sinners.
I say this LOUD to all you people, i have made this blog public again to tell you people now. --> I am not a fucking perfect human being. I am bound to make mistakes and i am going to make even more mistakes in the future. I am 80% evil and 20% good. I am a sinner who is saved by grace. Not a perfect human who deserves to get any good thing in life.
