Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Notes to myself on how to survive at Newstead Roadshow at IMM. *Updates*
1.) Bring umbrella
2.) Serve no bangalahs nor China people.
3.) Sushi sale starts at 8pm.
4.) Be late on purpose. On second thought. Be super late
5.) Bring Jacket
6.) Do not buy from kopitiam
Replies to tags! =]
Tessa: yeaps yeaps. haha. Thanks for reading anw! =]
Xian Qin : yes of cz, got big CC oso. hohohohoho!
Venus: After my work ends bah. Too lazy to do sia. haha
Monday, September 29, 2008
Dear diary, I woke up last night at 3am. I dunno what came over me and i broke down and cried. Then i realised how sad i have been all this while. And i realised the saddest life lived is not a life without a girlfriend. Its a life lived without God. I thought i was strong, but i now know im lousy through and through. Even the strongest man cannot live without love. And im nowhere near strong. Who was i trying to bluff? I now realise why i wanted a gf, i was searching for someone to love, the very fact is that i didnt feel loved by anyone.
People ask why i couldnt find a gf, i asked myself "Whats wrong with me?". Then i realised now why i couldnt get a gf. It was pretty much God behind it. Im not angry that he didnt allow me to have relationships. Now that this has happened, it was me who asked him to do whats best for me and asked him to protect me. But i never knew the weight of my request. I Never knew protection from God himself would be so painful. I thought he would stop my heart from falling for anyone, but he knew what else to do. He made me fall for girls, get heartbroken and be reminded of my promise to him.
I remembered i once told Olivia that maturity isn't about not making mistakes. I didn't finish the sentence for i wanted her to figure out the next part of the sentence. The same way i figured out this sentence myself when Joe told me the same part of the sentence. He told me that maturity isnt about not making any mistakes. I kept wondering what then is maturity. After making so many mistakes in life. I realised what he actually meant. But after talking to Olivia yesterday. I know she has already figured out for herself the second part of the sentence. Yes Olivia, im happy you figured out the second part. Maturity isn't about not making any mistakes anymore, its being brave enough to learn from them.
I am a rotten being through and through. I have forgotten the tears i cried and the sacrifices i made to break free from my old life. The days when people laughed at me because i wanted God. The days i gave up so many of my friends for him. The days when i did what i knew was best for me although it was so painful. Those days were years ago. But i looked back only to be happy i made that choice. The only regret i had was backsliding.
Sometimes what humans see is only the surface of things. What do they know about what dwells deep inside my heart? I am merely human. I am someone who needs friends too. Mum always tell me to make God my best friend. All i could ask is, how do i do that? I need friends whom i can see and touch. Friends i can hang out with. How can i make someone invisible my super best friend? Someone i can only feel?
But then again, who are my real physical friends? Human friends come and go. I have already come to accept this fact. Friends will never stay forever. All i can do is to make their days with me a memorable one. Even when i look at olivia, Kai, Ming Li, Xin an. I can only accept the fact that they can never be with me forever. One day they will find better friends. And we will sooner or later lose contact. And all i would be left with is the holy being still with me caring for me.
I sometimes wonder, if i were to die today. Where would i actually go? Heaven or hell? I ask myself this question, am i still a Christian? Who can tell me the answer? I tried figuring out what i must do to get to heaven. I thought there was a minimum requirement. But humans have so many perspectives, but none has ever seen heaven. They preach of ways to go to heaven. But i realise now, i just have to do what he tells me. Thats my safest gurantee.
Goodnight Mr Diary typed out on a keyboard =] Thank you for listening to my rants.
Love, Nathan
6:48 AM
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Ah sam just send me photos from our outings. Sentosa, studying and that time when we played with fireworks and stuff? haha. Not gonna upload all the photos. Just gonna upload some. I'll just upload those that are nice and cool. haha.
Church today. After lunch stayed back to talk cock while waiting for frens to call. After that hanged out with Olivia den walked to the bus stop together. Then she left then i went home. Slept till now. bleahssss.
Work starts tomoro. have to reach IMM at 10am. wth laaaaa. People!!! Come find me at IMM!!! hahah. Find one booth sell laptop and desktop one just come up and talk to me. Im bored!! haiz. Wun be updating much. Unless i have the energy to update la. haha.
Been listening to this song on imeem. Cant seem to find the song. Its by Olivia Ong. Really nice song. Though its kinda old laaa. But if its a good song. Its worth listening =]
NITES! =]
9:47 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
I had a weird dream last night. Know what i dreamt of? haha. I freaking dreamed that my wife just gave birth and i have to take care of the baby for 2 days. And seriously, i really loved that dream so much. Learning to carry the baby and caring for it. So much love!! I think my obsession with having my own kid os going overboard. crap. im just freaking 18 years old. I still have like 7 more years before i get married. damn laaa.
Gonna go watch some F1 thingy later. bleahs!
1:38 PM
350am now! haha. Reached home at around 3am just now. Went out with parents. Went to eat supper den went mustafa for LATE NIGhT SHOPPING!! so fun so fun. haha. Took lots of photos but im going to upload only a few coz its getting kinda late. haha.
Anw!! I got freaking sick and tired of firefox and internet explorer. So i decided to use SAFARI browser!! haha. Its freaking cool can? Gives ur browser the MACBOOK feeling. haha. And did i mention its so much faster? yeaps yeaps!! Cool look and faster web browsing! I love it i love it i love it!! As i was saying it gives u a apple macbook feeling. Here is a little look at it =]
So cool ya? haha. if you wanna download it here is the link! Yeap yeap. Its by apple anw. Thus the apple look. DUH?!! http://www.apple.com/safari/
Anw! ask you guys. Wear specs better or not? haha. just a harmless question =]
So how? Which one better? hohohoho! Anw! Sleep! Nites =]
3:36 AM
Friday, September 26, 2008
Went out with Kai today first. Went to shop. Got my stuff den got his stuff too. After that went to find Ah zhong and Xiao Ling and Xin an. Xiao Qing came find us too. Decided to watch a 945pm movie. Xiao Qing left then Xin an went for meeting. Den Ah Zhong drove us to Jurong Point. First time sitting in a Subaru STI. Damn noisy and super fast car. Ah Zhong drove freaking fast can? Reached JP in like 10mins. And that includes parking time! Usually takes my dad 20 mins.We watched Painted Skin. Some new movie by Donnie Yen. Not say a very good movie if you ask me. For those who dunno who Donnie yen is.
Well, out of 5 stars i'd give the show, 3 stars. Worth a first watch. But i dun think its worth a second watch if u ask me. Anw! After the movie Ah Zhong drove back to Jurogn to wait for Xin An, den we went to 496 to eat. AFter that Dad and mum came to meet me den went home together. Reached home at around 2am. bleahs!Xin an was talking bout Hk's grandmother. Well, she is 92 years old now. And he was telling us after his meeting with the elders. That Hk's grandmother keeps hearing chains sound at night. And she is scared. And he says its most probably Niu tou and Ma mian. I mean its not the first time i am hearing such stories. But what touches my heart is a story of what my dad told me. Some old lady has a son who is somewhat retarded since young. He lived till 51 years old. One night the old lady saw 2 man dressed in white and they were shining carrying her son. Her son stood up and walked away with the 2 angels. And the son passed away peacefully. damn cool rite?I think im tired lei. Typing this freaking entry at 3am at night. Think i better go rest le. nites latidaaaaa!!!
2:12 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Forgive me for mass blogging these few days. haha. Holidays are just plain boring. And since im going to work for the whole week next week, i'll just mass blog now i guess. Sorry people, i doubt you will see me online for the whole of next week. awwwwww =[ =[ =[ Sms me horsss! I'll be plain bored when im stoning at IMM. haha. I looked thru my friendster list. And i realised the people from malaysia are the real friendster kings and queens. Seriously. I didnt even view them once, i didnt even touch my friendster except to accept coments. And they freaking added me on friendster. Like seriously. Who the hell are these people? 0.0!! Friendster is filled with dumb people. Seriously. Anw! I read this friendster bulletin posted by Venus. Its about guys. And yeah, i really agree with alot of things. I will just paste some that are bloody true about me and i'll elaborate it. Here it goes1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.... ( I really agree with this one. I can hang out with many pretty girls but in my mind i would only be thinking bout the girl i love. )3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile(: (So girls, smileeeee!)5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. (This works for me. All the time)6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. (Very trueeee)8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!! 9 Very true, i dun even mind settling down at 21. lol!)9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot. ( I do that sometimes. But sometimes, some girls are really beautiful. So yeaaa) 12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that (So damn true can? haha)
13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me. (Thats what i actually meant!! But end up most of the times they just walk away )
14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. ( For this, i choose people whom i really trust to talk serious with. But happens sometimes only. )16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. ( Need i elaborate? )17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. ( Well, i dun mind paying 20 bucks just to know what you are thinking bout. )AND THIS IS THE FINAL ONE!! And i very very very like this one. So true bout me laaaaaaa. here it goes...Are you ready???!! TAAADDAAAAA!20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE!!!!!!!!I dun think i need to elaborate this anymore rite?? haha. bleahs. I better go bath. Meeting Kai to go buy some stuff. woooohoooo!!
1:18 PM
Went out with Zenn today. Nya oo was suppose to come. End up never. Went to meet her at JE first. Den ate at some korean restaurant! yummy yummy. After that since it was early went to Zenn house so she could bath and change into a more comfortable pair of slippers. I just slacked at her house and read some magazines. And her sister called me kor. I was like wtf? I dun even know her well she call me kor. bleahs. After that went to Orchard de far east. Couldnt find what i want. Too late. End up walk to The cathay find Jia hui. After that both of them wanted to go some pub to drink. Not interested in pubs nor drinking when im dressed in casual wear. So i went home myself. bleahs. Came home den watched some hong kong show bout gangs(again). bleahs. Those hong kong gang shows never fail to entertain me sia. haha. So nice u know?Anw! Took some pics with zenn today. upload dem.
Zenn did some stupid pose for the camera. Ended up she looked dumb. haha
My mom and sisters managed to catch some grasshopper dat managed to came into our house. lol. caught it and released it after its picture was taken. It was kinda big. haha. 
Its 2am. Needa get some sleep. Im tired. nites =]
2:02 AM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Its 1am. Spent a freaking 1 hour negotiating with kai on where he wants our supper to be. Apparently that idiot wants to eat it near his house. Nawww! I aint walking dat far at 1am at night. So i asked him to come over my side. bleahs. conslusion? im typing this entry now am i? go figure. Im bored. Jenny told me to do 2 quizzes. bleahs. i'll do it okay since you're ma bitch. Apparently its a quiz dat i have seen in friendster. Loads of times. Apparently she said that these quizzes will be read finish by people who actually care about you. So people, read it if you actually care bout me. Its gonna get long. So yea, sorry for 2 posts in one day =]35 little secrets:
Be honest no matter what!
[ ZERO] Who was your last text from?
. Ming Li
.
[ ONE ] Where was your default pic taken
. Friendster you mean? Changi airport
.
[ TWO ] What' s your profile name?
. Nathan loves you :)
.
[ THREE ] your relationship status?
. Single =]
.
[ FOUR ] Have you ever lost a close friend
. yeaps. loads
.
[ FIVE ] What is your current mood?
. Bored bored bored but happy =]
.
[ SIX ] whats ALL of your brothers and sisters name?
. Grace, joy and Nathan
.
[SEVEN] Whats your favorite color(s)?
. black
.
[EIGHT] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
. yes. I should have used UOB instead of POSB
.
[NINE] Have a crazy side?
. yes. its evil
.
[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
. yeaps.
.
[ELEVEN] Something you do alot?
. Go out with frens and sleep
.
[TWELVE] Angry at..
. My bank.
.
[THIRTEEN] Whats stopping you from going for the person you love?
. getting hurt
.
[FOURTEEN] When is the last time you cried?
. a year ago
.
[FIFTEEN] Who would you do anything for?
. erm, hmmm. Olivia and Ming Li?
.
[SIXTEEN]who has been ur fav bf/gf ?
. hohoho! Diana!
.
[EIGHTEEN]do u liKe some1 in ur top frends?
. huh? Top friends?
.
[NINETEEN] What kind of phone do you have?
.Nokia N81. great phone yo!
.
[TWENTY]who u trust more?
. mum and Dad =]
.
[TWENTY-ONE] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
. omfg omfg ofmg!! Ben 10!!! You should watch it! Cartoon network 11pm daily and 730pm. damn uber nice!!
.
[TWENTY TWO]have u kissed sum1 with the following letters m, j, c, p,
m,j,f
. C onli?
.
[TWENTY- THREE ] Do you speak any other languages?
. oh yes! Malay, chinese and vulgar languages. hohoho
.
[TWENTY-FOUR] Who is your friend that your really close to?
. Olivia, ming li, shi min? , Hk, Xin an, Zenn, Spencer, edmund, edwin?, Ai jie, Jenny, Esther.
.
[TWENTY-FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
. Eye opening =]
.
[TWENTY-SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
. nope.
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[TWENTY-SEVEN ] What are you thinking about right now?
. UOB or POSB?
.
[TWENTY-EIGHT ] What should you be doing right now?
. Eating supper with Kai
.
[TWENTY-NINE] What is your favorite memory?
. Those days when i had loads of money in my bank
.
[THIRTY] What are you listening to?
. I wanted you by Ina
.
[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person that told you I love you?
. Mum
.
[THIRTY-TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
. Mum
.
[THIRTY- THREE ] Do you act differently around the person you like?
. yes.
.
[THIRTY-FOUR] What is your natural hair color?
. dark brown
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[THIRTY- FIVE] Who was the last person to make you smile?
. Evvy. Shes funny.
OKAY!! On to the second quiz =]
name 10 people you can think of right
off the top of your head. Don't read
the questions underneath until you
write the names of all 10 people.
This is a lot funnier if you actually
randomly list the names first . No
cheating.
1.Olivia
2.Ming Li
3.HK
4.Xin an
5.Vicky
6.Spencer
7.Edmund
8.Edwin
9.Shi Min
10. Ai jie
DONT LOOK AHEAD UNLESS U FILLED UP THE
TOP!
1.How did you meet number 4?
- Thru Kai, long time ago
2. Do you have a crush on anyone up
erm. hmm. i think so?
3. What would you do if you hadn't met
number 1?
- My life would have been so much more meaningless.
4. What would you do if 6 and 2 were on?
- Bo calling. Spencer and Ming Li age gap too big. haha. Impossible impossible impossible. haha.
5. How did you meet number 8?
- IT fair
6.Have you ever been inside number 2's house
- nope =]
7.Do you love number 9?
- nope. Shes my jie jie! Jie jie lovessss! ahha
8. Ever been in the same bed as any
of the numbers?
- yeaps yeaps. Edwin edmund, and Hk
9. What about no. 5?
- what about no 5 wad?
10. Do you trust these people?
- to a certain extend =]
11. what's no 10 to u?
- godsister
12. How's no 3 & 7?
- Hk is a super great fren. Been brothers since sec 3? or was it sec 2? Edmund is a great great friend too =]
13. who has a better body? 6,5,10?
- Vicky? He's a muscle man
14. would u ever date any of these ppl?
- depends
Done!! happy happy? yay!! Long post filled with dumb questions. Update again! =]
12:48 AM
