Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Was with Kai just now when my parents came to pass me my IC at the coffee shop. And my mum started scolding me for being so blur. And Kai lost his appetite to eat coz of my parents. lol! But i guess Kai was right. i have good parents who care for me. And i sense sadness when he said that i have good parents. i wouldnt be surprised. all he wanted was family love i guess. Does having a lover makes u a better person? i seriously doubt so. Why go crazy over someone when u know the relationship will end sooner or later? i am blessed to be able to love Jesus and know that the relationship will last for eternity. now thats something i would want to invest my life in. A girlfriend is something like a side dish. an extra. Like french fries. But the hamburger is the main menu. haha. But still. I would want my partner to be a happy person and blessed one. So time to keep on changing. Soemtimes i feel so blessed i am living in the end of ages. then i have a high chance of not needing to die. i might just be raptured and no need to die!! WHEEEEEEE! haha. but i guess if i have to die horribly then i guess i'll just do it. I made a prayer last night and i sure hope that God fulfils it. I prayed that if i were to grow up to rebel against God, Then i really hope that someone kills me before that happens. I dun mind dying horribly rather than rebel against God.
4:28 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
My sis has always had a sense of fighting for the sake of the females pride and social standing in the world. I understand how she feels and i wun argue over it. i read a bulletin from friendster and it sure made me think that all females are really strong deep within their hearts. oh yeah. my sis read the bulletin oredi. so its for other girls who read this blog.
>> A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"
God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an innerstrength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faultsand fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.
And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - theplace where love resides."
So Da jie. If u r reading this. Dun feel angry because the world potrays a woman as weak. I myself think that is unfair. And i nvr once looked down on woman. God has made you stronger than men in their hearts. And thats all that matters. Women are weak physically yet strong mentally. Men are strong physically yet weaker mentally. The fairness that God gives to each gender.
People say i am childish but all i can do is give thanks for the God given character! being childish is always better than being irritating! haha.
12:58 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Funny how girls think that make up makes them look nicer. But in fact!? They look like shit. Typical example? My ex girlfriend! WHO? 80% of em!! hmm. not realli. actualli 3 of em bahs. The days of dating them w/o make up. Beautiful. Now?? i can hardly see their skin anymore with all the make up. Nice? nah!! they just look like shit. Moral of the story? Make up stops u from showing the real beauty in you. Dun use make up. they suck.
There just seems to be a barrier between the older ones and younger ones in my church. thankful it isnt that big. Why am i saying this? coz i am bored. with every generation that comes. They just keep getting more spoilt and even more spoilt. Rich parents. Expensive gadgets. Spoilt attitude. Face the real world. The world isn't a beautiful place. You just keep getting fucked and more fucked as the days go by. And there will soon be no such thing as ladies first. I saw it happen last sunday right before my eyes where the males get the best seats before the females. pathetic. I was at Vicky house last time and we love throwing cigarettes and all sorts of things out of the window. Reason being? Singapore is a big dustbin.
Lets face it. Gangsters in singapore have absolutely no power. No matter how much you gangsters show me ur power. Its useless. I was there once and everything just seems so stupid. was talking to Raimy and ever wonder why there are very few old gangsters around? old as in 40-80 years old gangsters. Reason being? coz they all grow up and realise how weak they actually are. The ones creating trouble? The younger generation who cant seem to grow up. Lets face the truth. Gangsters are the weakest class in Singapore. They have to depend on a huge group of people to feel strength. Thats just bullshit. W/o their huge grp of people they feel weak in an instance. Harul told me that real strength comes from within. Words that come from an ex gangster of 37 years old. Listen to it and realise how weak you actually are you gangsters. The reason i am typing it is bcoz of the number of "gangsters" who are reading this blog. Not happy? show me your strength and i'll show you my real strength.
6:57 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
I was just reading my old blog. haha. all the entries was just about me screwing my life up and feeling sianz all the time. haha. now looking at my life. truly a miracle. good thing i didnt repeat, somethign i tot of doing when i was sec 3. haha. so i went out with my parents and my older sis last nite to have supper and our conversation led me back to the time when i was having my end of year exams for sec 3. haha. I always thought i was going to fail my maths and so i remembered on the day i had my maths exam, i delibrately skipped it by telling my Dad i had no exams. and stupid i was coz my tcher called my home to ask where i was. So on that day i screwed up my Maths exam coz i missed my first paper. but as usual. i flunked my end of year maths. but the miracle was that i was promoted to sec 4. something that only God can do. So i reflected and i realised how many times God was actually there for me even when i hated him to the core. Truly a miracle. the biggest miracle? i have always been failing for my whole secondary school life. i still remember the highest score i got was onli a b3. and that was geography. haha. i got more E8 and F9's than C5 even. haha. So i guess i still stand for what i said last time. I dun want to ask for anymore things but i just wanna give thanks. give thx for the route he has opened for me.
I am the champion in my family for the most number of school rules broken!! And the most number of times my teacher called up my parents to complain about me. haha!!My rebellion ends today.
Wanna read my old blog? do read up and know more about my old life. http://megasonic.blogdrive.com/http://nathanlovesnathan.blogs.friendster.com/nathan_loves_himself/
3:57 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
I am posted to Ngee ann Electronic and computer engineering. So thx all who helped me get this far and showed me ur concern. WACHAAAAA!Just something i did when i was bored. haha. Truly truly it describes me. | Your Brain is Blue |
Of all the brain types, yours is the most mellow.
You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles.
Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are.
You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life. |
10:55 AM
Monday, March 05, 2007
So i had small grp ystd and i said i am glad that everything is over. and yes i truly am happy that it is all over. maybe i can have a 5 break from doing anything. from meeting dumb people. and after that, continue on with life. but i guess my secondary school life did teach me alot of things. people insult me and look down on me for not knowing how to play table tennis or any other sports. haha. but its ok! people say that i am irritating, but its ok! People say i have a sucky character, but its ok! most importantly, people doubt my faith. That is a big big big "ITS OK!!"!! Where my faith is heading is between me and God and i need not answer to anybody about about it. except my parents that is. i know that at the end of the day. it is me being judged. not anybody. so dun worry and dun even care if i have attitude problems. i may have pride problems, i may have mental problems, i may have all the weird weird problems. but dun worry. You won't be judged for it. Its is just between me and God. I dun care what people think of me. I just live everyday happily and smiling all the time. I dun care if u say i am crazy or childish. That is not going to change anything. bcoz i just wanna live happily and live a life of continuous upgrading of myself. Dun worry Nathan, you are going to make it.
2:40 PM
