Friday, August 29, 2008
Yesterday was wed!! haha. Went to Edmund and edwin house to ton again. Ah sam oso follow us ton. Slept at around 2am coz we were disturbing sok cheng on msn. haha. Den i slept with edwin. Den ah Sam and Edmund sleep in the big brother room. haha. Den early morning get ready to go work le. Met jun Heng, some guy, forgot the name then went to BK to eat breakfast. The breakfast sucks can???!! Den after that suddenly Jueen come join us. SO long nvr see her she pop up suddenly. ahha. Den go work lo!!!! And Jueen, you better finish reading this entry hor!! haha. Im going to write about you later. haha!!Anw!! I tried to do something stupid with my parents just the day before i went to edmund house to ton. Mum has been bugging me to wash my dishes coz i dun wash them always after i use them. So one night before she went to sleep, i kinda made a promise that i would wash my dishes. But i wanted to try something new. So i did this...
SO i was wondering if the note would still be there or not? Coz the last time i did this i woke up to find even more dishes in the basin waiting for me to wash! But you know what??!
TADAAAAA!!!! Clean and silver basin in the morning. The feeeling is super shioookkkk siaaa!! hahaha. damn,, i have great parents...ANW!! Today was first day of IT fair! Its called Comex. Dunno why its called that but it sounds freaking ridiculous!!. Was waiting for Jueen to finish her debrief den played with Kai hong de phone. He took a photo and i was like omg!! My back hair looks freaking mEssy and nice!! i liek i like!! 
Nice mah nice mah??!! hahaha. yay!! i like sia,. JueeN!!!!! I telling you hors. By monday ah, must tag my blog, add me friendster and msn hor. haha. This girl hor, stalk me siaa... hahahah! She know where my blog add, what my full name is, and worse was, i didnt even really talked to her till today!! haha!! cannot cannot!! I must stalk her back liao. ROAR!! I know you are reading this entry. muahahahha. OKAY!! im tired. going to sleep le. haha. nitessssssss
Replies to tags !!
Ahminzai : yea, sure!! she is very sweetd e. haha. And yea, try not to i guess : )
Venus : Now that you mentioned it. Yahors. realli sia. haha
Oli : Same meh? a bit more messy onli la. haha. How to change sia. I blow dry it le. sobs
Nurul : Yea, i do. haha. what hottie?? haha
S : Who ask you dun wan sleep with me. Is you fight for their brother room lor. not me lei. haha
Esther: Mei mei!! Muacks muacks!! haha!!
1:28 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I guess its time to cool down. Im really going to say that this is really all my fault. I did something i shouldnt have done at all. Im really sorry. At least you now know im not a good person myself. Give us both some time k? You are still my friend : ) yay!! aND IM GLAD YOU ARE FINE TOO!! tIME HEALS ALL THINGS. 3 CHEERS!!well, i duno. I guess i really screwed things up this time. i need some guys time out. Guy friends!! Jio me out lei!! I really need some time off. No girls to be in my life for the time being. But i duno lei. I still will talk to girls close to me de la. haha. Olivia, ming li all. haha. I mean at least with Olivia and ming Li it wont be possible anythign could happen. Coz they are really like sisters to me now. 3 cheers for them both. But Ming Li nvr blog bout me de lor!! haha. Olivia once in a while only. See!! I blogging bout you both liao. Must blog bout me!! wahahaha.I tried styling my hair. Trying to change a new style leis. Those messy messy type. I have the right Gatsby rubber. But i still not sure how to style that hair sia. But see the youtube videos they do it like so easily no kick de sia. Sobs. I need to thin my hair again??!! I kinda did it a bit more messy. But still cannot sia. sian. Took a pic of it. Still pretty much looks the same as normal rite?
Took some random pics today. And i realise i super dun look like my father. I mean seriously la. People usually dun believe i look like my father. I and my father like from 2 different worlds. So i took 2 photos to compare. haha. I kidna took one super random pic today. I really duno why i look so weird in that pic. haha. Okay!! Photos!!
Okay!! Seriously, ask yourself. Any similarities? I inherited his nose!! Seriously people. Search your hearts. Comments? Or i look more like my second sister? If you are wondering why my pic nice nice de den my dad put anyhow one. The answer is, my dad rarely take photos, and im a camwhore. And who will post ugly photos of ourself de??! Correct? Use your brain lei!!
I still think i look more like my second sister sia. hmmm. Anw!! Replies to tag!! Nurul : Yea. Sort of la. haha. but shes funny. : ) And its okay la. I know myself well : ) Thanks cutey!!Tessa : HUH??!!Ming Li : Haha. Chill la Mei. duns o angry!! Blog about me leii!!! whahahaa. Tan : Tomoro lors!! Guy time out!! Wooohooo!!S : Ah Sam ah!! Dun think i dunno is you lors. Can can. You know i can gay with you one. wahahhaa. Im just going to give it more time and see how things goes : ) Nites people!!
1:51 AM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
I really dunno how to start this post. But i guess i will just write it now. I know about how you feel towards me and all. But i will just be very honest here. I am not very sure of my own feelings. I did like you. But after knowing you. I really can only say we arent suitable for each other. I remember i once asked you why you liked me. You said you liked me coz of my looks, dressing sense and coz i speak english. I cant help but sense dissapointment in my heart. It was never my heart u were attracted too. I know that you are attracted to good looking guys. But all i can say is that there are even more better looking guys out there. Way much better looking than me. You once told me that i had alot of relationships which lasted only a while. You wanted to be the one which will last for months or years. I will just very plainly tell you the reason why. I am someone who doesnt know how to reject girls. Out of my 9 ex-gf's, i loved only 2. Which is precisely the reason why i never talked or went out with them. The reason was coz i nvr rejected them when they approaached me. And i dun want you to be the 8th girl to be like this. I told you that my 10th girlfriend will be the one whom will very most likely be the one i will marry. So im not going to go anyhow anymore with my 10th one. And i dun think you should take this commitment with me coz looks arent the reason why we are in a relationship. You would ask why i didnt reject the 7 girls whom i didnt love. I will just tell you very plainly the reason why. Its because i have been rejected for more times than i could count. And it really hurts someone alot to be rejected. I didnt dare reject anyone of them coz i fear they would be hurt too. And this is the reason why i destroyed my whole life and image. And i dun want you to be dragged down together with me. It really isnt good for a girl to have too many ex'bf's. I know this all started because i didnt know how to reject. Im really very sorry that u are feeling this hurt in ur heart. I know very well how sucky the feeling is. I know it well, but i know it even better that the hurt you are going to feel is goign to be good for you. Maybe when things cool off, yea sure! We can go out together again as a group to watch movie, hang out and stuffs. I will be a good friend. But i can never be a good bf. I am very sure you dun want to be with a guy that is labelled as a playboy and flirt. And you know it perfectly well that i have many girlfriends. Im not a good person to begin with. No doubt you have the qualities a good gf would make. but it would never work out. I really hope you would meet someone better than me. Someone who would really take care of your heart. And if that happens, do treat his heart with care. Now dun misunderstand that i cancelled our date coz i wanna avoid you. It really is an emergency. Thats why im writing this entry 3am in the night so you could read it asap. I wont know what time i would be back home tomoro oso. Just remember that i can be a good friend to you. But i will never make a good bf. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------SOmetimes we do all sorts of shit stuff to make ourself look better. No doubt i feel happy and flattered when people say i look good and shits. But i really am starting to question myself. Isit worth it? Isit worth all the trouble to look good? Im really starting to destroy myself. Im starting to be proud. Its a really scary thought. My Dad told me that sometimes when people praise you, its like the devil trying to fan you to be more obsessed with it. You feel even more driven to look even better. You will start getting obsessed with looks that you start neglecting what really matters. And thats the heart. The personality that we shud all be seeking. A heart of God and gold. I understand what this means now. The devil is really a smartass creature i feel stupid to have even messed with him in the first place. Coz now, all i can say is that i have lost hands down. I have lost myself to him. Sorry for the long post people. Nites...
2:36 AM
Back from 429. Holidays are like freaking boring la. nothign to do one. everyone is busy. arghhh!!Im on the right track. But i seem to be going the wrong way leis? alamk. jia lat jia lat. I used to label people as "Flirts" when i was younger. yeah. When we label someone as a flirt. It means nothing to you. But now that im labelled as a "flirt" and "playboy", i nvr knew it would hurt someone so much. It really hurts someone deep inside. Its like someone calling a girl a prostitute. Its like calling me cheap and desperate. Its really hurting deep inside. But then again, sometimes i feel very blessed about my lot in life. I have no issues as to where i am in my life. I am not very rich to the point that i have to worry bout money issues. I am not poor to the point i have to starve. i am pretty much well off. I hv great friends, i have a good family, great religion, great relationships. I am happy with the way i look, the way i am and all. I guess thats the reason why i dun get jealous of things or people so easily. I dun really know what it feels like to envy other people. Im contented the way i am. 3 cheers for me daddy!! : )ahhh, blahs.
12:14 AM
Monday, August 25, 2008
Today is sunday. Hmmm, didnt go to church. Slept until around 5pm woke up. haha. Xin an jio me go kopi coz 429 dere got Ge tai. Was damn shocked sia. There got the cast of "money not enough 2". Jeck neo la, hui ge all. Then got the gangster guy from money not enough 2. haha,. damn ccool can. first time see jack neo. haha. But nvr go see up close. damn lazy to leave my seat sia. Kai came at around 10pm. left around 11pm. haha
Xin an
so far from the Ge tai rite??ahh wells. people always say i am a playboy. But some others would tell me follow my heart for i know myself best. But i have just got to be honest here. I dunno who i am inside seriously. But i have been recieving sooo many comments that i am a playboy. All i can do now is just not fight back and accept the fact that i really am a playboy. People say i am very good at talking with girls. But seriously people. Lets ask ourselves. Just coz someone talks well with girls means he is a flirt? I can onli tell you that i used to suck alot when it comes to talk to girls. I would be damn panic and i would keep super quiet on dates. Ask Shiffa, one of my ex. I would shut my mouth up on the whole journey home. Then i figured, wad for? I rather open up and talk. But why? Was it coz i wanted to get to know more girls? no! Coz i didnt want to be anti social and be commented like a retard who wouldnt talk. Its better to be sociable than anti social rite? Im still living like i know nothing. Im just acting stupid. But im happy this way. Im not living like i never got what i deserve after all that i did. Im living coz i got my just desserts. I got my karma seven times backHolidays are here. 2 months of doing nothing starts tommoro. Jio me out people!! hahahha.
*edits*
Vivien said something eres correcto!! Playboy is a guy who play with girls feelings, fuck the girls good, den dump them. Which means i am not a playboy!! I am a virgin, how could i have fucked any girl? And i didnt dump most of my ex'es. Is i got dumped. which menas, i am not a playboy!! yayyyy!!
1:15 AM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Sorry never update my blog. Had a freaking crazy time after my exams. Spend my fridays, saturdays with edmund , Edwin, Shi min, Ying ping, Vivien, zhi jun, Ah sam and Benjamin. Met them on friday then went out. We went to watch fireworks after our I.T fair briefing. Took photos!! credits to me and Zhi juN!! yay!! She quite pro at taking photo ah. haha.
After fireworks we went to Lau pa sat to have our supper. After eating le we proceeded to some river. Dunno what river oso. Slacked there.
Around 1.30am we went to take NR2 to edmund and edwin de house. Reach there le damn fun sia. 5 or 6 people surround me all squeeze my pimples. Like operation theatre like dat sia. Den after that Zhi jun attempted to massage our backs by standing on our backs. She stand still okay sia. Edmund go stand on my back i could feel my whole lungs being compressed sia. After that we starting drinking. The wine damn bloody strong can? I drank around 5-6 small cups my whole body heat up liao sia. Den suddenly everything become so giddy giddy sia. Thats when i realise i was drunk. I seriously didnt know what happened that night or what i did. But i really did alot of stupid things that night. haiz.Woke up the next morning, Zhi jun went high. Dunno for what reason. She was sleeping beside me then if i am not wrong she woke me up my slapping me on my face. Den do stupid stunts den still wanna take photo when i looked freaking messy after i woke up. haha. Took a photo of her being high.
Okay!! AFter that went to eat breakfast at KFC with Zhi jun, Shi min and edwin and edmund. Dunno why i eat fkc until i got freaking gastric sia. Den after that shi min and Zhi jun left. I went back to edwin and edmund house use com, chat then slept. Around 4pm like tat edwin fetched me to Yishun Mrt take train, went to church, grandma house. Then went out with edwin and gang again!! Watch fireworks again!! hahahhaa. Den around 1am reached home. Oh oh!! Ying ping de slipper spoil. Someone stepped on it den end up u knw wd?? She had to use my SEX band to hold her slippers together. COool rite? took a photo of it and i am going to post it here!! hahaha
cool rite?? So smart hor me? think of using the sex band to hold the slippers. wahahha!But damn tired sia. I slept onli a few hours after getting drunk. Den dunno why i today was so fraking blur. It isnt like me to trip and fall and make myself look stupid. Went out of the mrt and was feeling damn blur. I walk normalli den suddenly i just fell sideways. Seriously hors, i was like wth can? Den i go up the stairs i go trip at the staircase. Double paiseh sia. Feeling so freaking blurry. Den at church i almost fell in front of olivia. But that one still okay la. Coz itss olivia and i dun really care oso. haha. Cannot liao. Must cut down on alcohol le. i am not a drinking person. haha.its 2.23am now! Gonna go heat up me popeye's chicken mash potato den go sleep le. catch up on my sleep. haha.
1:33 AM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Exam ended le! yay!! Acda paper was kinda easy. haha. Went to meet hui ling coz she wanted to get something from me. End up she come up my house fall on my bed den sleep le. Now i using com she sleeping. stupid girl. Now i wanna sleep oso have to go to living room sleep. Lucky parents not at home siaaaa. Or else die. anw, i created this entry coz i saw the tagboard quite alot of comments. I usually dun do this but i dun wanna flood the board with my replied tags. So yea.Venus : No laa. haha. i just anyhow put coz nobody tag. hahaMing Li : Hi mei!!! haha. yay!! My exams oso ended le. time to play play play!!!Nurul : Yalors. haha. With tessa around. haha. her shoelace scene damn funny sia. She still want take photo. haha. Kyro : Yea. I workign for Cedric. But i friday not working at the fair coz i goign to meet friends go back to my secondary school and primary school. Ying ping: U got flabby face? Sure not??! haha. But you seriously very cute sia!! ARGH!!!Vivien : yea. haha. nvm ah. its nice wad. very artistic. The only improvement we can do is to get a better camera. hahaokay, sleepy. Time to sleep. later maybe going out with ming li and oli. Maybe only. Not confirmed yet. But at night goign to meet Kai for dinner. yay!! Busy busy busy!
11:03 AM
Today was my TP paper. Went to school at around 7am, finished my paper 1hr30mins later. Waited for neng wei to pass him his Ipod and keys. After that went to Orchard to meet Olivia, then oso got tessa and Nurul. Ate at lido then went Cine watch money not enough 2. It was a good movie. But i was really too tired out halfway thru the movie i sleep liao. Think its coz i continuous studying then sleep late, wake up earlier.After movie send olivia go funan for her dance lessons. Then went to jurong east mrt wait for edmund. Then while waiting for edmund chatted with mingli on msn. Den after that went to science centre to meet ying ping and vivien. I couldnt study sia. Go there eat, play den sleep. Den after that we go coffeeeshop chat then go to JE mac study there till 11pm den went home.Tessa got her shoelace stuck at the elevator. funny scene. Still wanna take photo of her shoelace being stuck. haha.Tmr last paper le!! haha. After that maybe going out with ming li and oli again. See how. Then friday going to ton with edmund edwin and vivien! ahha. Watch fireworks. Maybe after that ask edwin drive round singapore for us. haha. Roundings at midnight is fun y'know? Thanks Vivien for the idea. haha.Relationship with Olivia is back to normal again. Im glad things are like this. But im just going to make some changes. Ming Li too!! I realise this is the first time i blog bout her. haha. She is a great great great godsister!! haha. She was willing to stand by me in times of shitty shits. Yea, she's vulgar arh. But its her and i really dun mind. haha. And olivia? haha. Well, what can i say? I feature only 2 girls in my friendster. Needless to say how much both of them mean to me liao rite? haha.Tired siaaa. Chatting with Vivien on msn now. haha. Helped her edit this pic. I thought it was kinda nice sia. haha. so post and let u all see. Nice pic vivien!!
12:08 AM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Kai told me a good analogy of life. Personal and private matters are pretty much similiar to shitting. So when we shit, we do it behind closed doors. Same thing for private matters. We do it behind closed doors. And the best is when nobody is in the same toilet as u, you can shit all sorts of noises and nobody would know. But if we are to gossip, its likke videotaping someone shitting and bringing it out for public to see. Which is very very bad. whatever. Its kinda late. Brains not working well. Its a weird analogy actually.I knw who was there for me when i needed them and i know who dump me when they have something beter. I know who my friends are and who arent. SO yea...ANW'S!! Today went out with Ying ping, edmund, edwin and vivien. Met edmund first then go his house slack watch tv. After slack le went to meet vivien at admiralty then go eat KFC. Wah, Vivien buy zinger onli eat the meat the patty levae there one sia. First time see. After eat le went back edmund house. I sleep den edmund and vivien go do their stuffs. Around 3pm liddat we went to jurong east library. Saw alot of ex yuhua people dere. Got lijie, farah all. haha. den ying ping and edwin later join us.After ying pign reach we go play arcade first. Played daytona again. Then after that go to jurong east de science centre eat at mac den study there. Halfway thru go play then round 11pm we all go home le. Took some pics. I'll upload them den sleep. yawn!!!!
12:11 AM
Monday, August 18, 2008
Sometimes its not that people change for the worse. Its just that sometimes we have made another step in knowing a person more. Thus knowing more of that persons weakness. Am i right people?Anw's! Today was church. Normal church day. Ate, slacked, floorballed then went home take stuff. Then after that i met Edmund first then after that ying ping joined us then we 3 study together. Studied till like 8.30pm den we go play arcade. daytona. I owned 2 noobs!! got 1st out of 4!! yay!!!! Then after that went to jurong east entertainment centre Mac to eat. Then Serene was stil there. She kept running up and down mac like some dumb girl can? Den see me first thing is trip. Cannot cannot. Need teach her how to walk.Then after that continue to study outside mac. The ying ping got this cute stapler. Damn cute la. haha.Seriously ah, sometimes i see how ying ping behave ah. Really feel like squeezing her cheeks sia!!!! So cute la her behaviour! hahahaha. Sorry ah ying ping if you are reading this. Just to let you know only. haha. You damn cute can?? haha. anw's!! As i was saying. Took a pic of her stapler. haha.
haha. So cute rite? oh wells.Anw! today took a pic with Daryl in church. And i thought this picture was freaking cute laaaa. haha
So chubby rite he? haha. Darren ah darren. ur bro damn cute sia. haha!!OKay!! ACDA down looo!!! jia you jia you!!!! : )one more day!!
12:14 AM
Saturday, August 16, 2008
I like songs with good rhythm. The tings tings have really jumpy songs with good beat and good rhythm. But their songs have no meaning. haha. But then again. Its nice laaa. Go and listen to it if u wan ya?Why bother?Everyone wants a good partner. But not everyone is a good partner. die motherfucker.
10:39 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
Ystd went to tiong bahru to study with neng wei and regan. Den got meet Venus. First thing when i saw her was "Short siaaa". well den. Chatted and crapped den went back to studying. Met Venus againf or dinner then chatted and crapped again. She did something which she said was damn paiseh but it was okay to me. Spirting out rice from her mouth. Reminds me of the days with one of my ex. We would do crappy stuffs like spit rice at each other's face. Sounds gross i know. Guess i really do miss her. After all she was the only girl closest to me whom i really loved alot. But guess its time to move on with life!! but she's a funny partner i guess : ) Miss ya girl!!! Lalala. Del exam today. went to school around 10am. Met Algean on the bus den danny at clementi busstop. Went school study with neng wei, eddie and reagan. Exam started at 2pm. I left at 3pm den reached home 4pm. bla bla bla. I realised nowadays wherever i go i see lovers. Be it in the train, bus or wherever. I just cant help it but try to deduce if their relationship was a loving one or a physical one. So lets say, i see couple A, not much physical touch. They chat freely and openly, slight physical touches here or there is fine. Its pretty much a good sight to be seeing if you ask me. To me its kinda heartwarming. And usually this category of couples are people aged 20 and above. But then there's category B. The guy cant keep his hands off the girl throughout the whole journey. Do little whispers here and there then kiss. Pretty much erotic. Well, we all know its not a very good sight to be looking at. And we all know which age groups these kind of couples fall into.Friendster is a good website if you ask me. Afterall, i knew people thru friendster oso. Say, triffany, then theres aijie whom i knew thru triffanny. Then Xian qin, Esther, Venus, pei ling, Shu ying, JoJo and Joy. Well, i have been given the title "friendster king" by Patrick all. LOL! yea, i dun mind being called friendster king. Coz i do use friendster alot. lol. But i am thinking of deleting my friendster. Seeing there is no point anymore. Knowing people thru friendster is one way to know people, but not my way of knowing people. I guess ying ping is rite. Using friendster to find gf's is a lousy way. If i wanna find a gf i rather i know her well and all instead of relying on cyber chat and stuffs. But idk. I kinda like looking at the views counter increase and stuffs. Then i would see if i can hit my average of 600 per month. Sounds stupid i know. But its some sort of entertainment la. haha. And yea, Patrick and gang is rite. I really am the friendster king. wahahahha!!Left with 3 more modules to settle. sian sian. Gotta start chionging liao. ROAR! *Paging for people to study together*
4:56 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Today went to Harbour front mac to study. Tehre got jia heng, regan, neng wei and eddie. I go there str8away buy the sushi liao. lol!! Studied till around 6pm liddat all leave le. lol. Was in the train then Serene suddenly called me say she wanna meet me. Went to meet her at jurong east. She apparently called me for no dumb reason. She wanted to hang around jurong coz she dun wanna go home. But oh well. Took the bus together, that dumb girl dun even know how to walk properly can? Keep tripping and falling and hold the pole also can hit the face one. Cannot tahan her i told her i at my stop i go down le coz i need to go out later. So yay!! Reached home at 8pm. Was supposed to study at changi airport, but end up nvr coz all dun wan. Slept till 11pm, watched Ben 10 all den study liao. I really dunno why im letting people control the way i live. I figured that what i do, i do not have to be accountable to anyone at all. Wad i do on friendster, facebook, blog is none of my frens business. Who i add is none of anyone's business. Who i chat with is none of anyone's business. Who i have relationships with is none of their problem. So i guess i'll just do what i want so long i dun step into other people's space. Afterall, i can add anyone or do anything and no one can have the right to stop me nor say anything bout it. Coz i am not harming anyone with whatever im doing. I guess sometimes just to fit in we tend to start selling ourselves. We do all sorts of shit stuff to fit in. We give up parts of ourselves and we greed for other stuffs. The ones who arent cool will start acting cool and end up looking stupid. The ones who arent funny will try to be funny and end up beign lame. Coz we arent suited for some thigns. Some are born funny, some born cool and we all are given our places on earth. I realised one thing, i have many grp of frens. And with different grp of frens, i have different personalities. But one thing i realised, the group i am closest with, i am myself when i am with them! I do not have to hide who i am inside when im with them. And i am happy and they dun have problems with me : ) Kai, Xin an, Vicky, Zenn and gang. This are thr group of people closest to me in life. They know me inside out and i know them too! guess i gotta study. Nites people
1:19 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Been going out quite alot nowadays. And each time go out will go home very late de. yesterday went out with patrick, sq, hector. HAnged out till 1am liddat den cabbed home. Today went to tiong bahru plaza to study with neng wei. That place damn alot of sec school girls sia. and they were damn noisy. After studying meet Vicky den go 429 kopi till like 11pm den go home. haha.I guess although i have many frens. I can never trust any of em anymore. I guess i am very well aware that bad things are starting to be spoken behind my back. Very well aware im being stabbed in my back. Oh well. Dad was right, never trust human beings. They will never fail to bring you down. Trust God, never man. Why do we gossip and backstab people? Dad once told me when i was younger. When people backstab you, they will feel better of themselves. Why? Am i right to say that people who backstab and gossip are people with no confidence of themselves? I am very well aware that when you backstab people, you will definitely feel better of yourself. Backstabbing is like an esteem booster. The very fact is that people who backstab and gossip are people with no confidence of themselves. No one is ever perfect. Everyone has flaws. Why treat everyone like they promised to you that they will be perfect?Yea, i guess i really have high confidence. I have no problem with how i look and how i am as a person. I know my own place in life. I am not high there with the stars. Neither am i down low to the ground. God placed me at a position. Destined to stay there. Why tear down other humans with gossip just so you can step on them and elevate urself higher? I recieved my first encouragement today to quit smoking. Never knew the first one to encourage me was God. Was at 429 coffeeshop. All my friends were smoking. But i made up my mind not to smoke. So i refused to smoke. And Lo and behold. My family went to the same coffeeshop to eat. Thank god i wasnt smoking. And i got more money to spend le. yay!! I made my blog known because i trust you people that you would understand what is being said here and respect all that is being typed here. Not to use it against me as a ground for insulting me. On second thought. Forget it. No point talking on. People just wont get it. goodnite motherfucking world. I pray armageddon comes fast. Wipe out this earth clean.
12:36 AM
Monday, August 11, 2008
Sunday!! Church was normal, camwhored quite a bit today. After church met up with Shi min, ying ping, edwin, edmund, sok cheng, and edwin de cousin. Sammo i think? haha. HAnged around orchard. Chill chill, bought movie tickets for a show at around 9.45pm. Watched wedding daze. wahhahahha. Funny, nice short and sweet. haha. Ended around 11 plus. Took Mrt home. Nice ride home. talk bout practicalli everything. edwin and shi min went down first. then ying ping and i continued. Chatted a bit den she went off. Then i emo on the train. Whole cabin empty like one idiot seat there. lol!Reached home. Open friendster. Damn bloody stupid. I just asked algean flood my comment box with his comments. So got guy comments. now i open pending comments all still girls. Maybe i dun accpet bahs. Uploaded photos. Editted a bit, upload. Chatting with ying ping and Venus now. Ying ping made me do blogthings.com de quiz. Now i start doign until cannot stop. So i tot i shud post the results here. haha. *Warning* Most of the results are flattering to me ONLY! Might sound sick to you all. wahahhahaha.
You Inner Gender is Female
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You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.
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You Are Pretty Happy Being Single
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You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.
Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.
But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!
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You Are Disturbingly Profound
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You're contemplative, thoughtful, and very intense.
Taking time to figure out the meaning of life is a priority for you.
Because you're so introspective, you often react in ways that surprise people.
No one can really understand how you are on the inside... and that disturbs them.
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You Would Make an Okay 1930's Husband
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You have some of the attributes of an ideal 1930's husband.
You're well mannered, kind, and even tempered.
You have a few nasty habits, but what man doesn't?
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Your Heart is Feeling Safe
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Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way.
Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of.
You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with.
Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable
Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented
Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated
Watch out for: Taking the people you're dating for granted
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You Can Make 63% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You
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Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.
Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!
As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.
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You Are Extremely Charming
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When someone talks to you, they feel like they are the most interesting person in the world.
And for you in that moment, they actually are.
You truly care about the people you're around, and it's obvious to everyone who meets you.
You are open, warm, friendly, and welcoming. You epitomize charm.
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wahahha. so many sia.
Must quit smoking Must Quit smoking!! For the ones i love!! Jia you!!!
2:48 AM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I just realised yesterday was my blog's 2nd year birthday. So happy birthday Mr Intensified-stupidity.blogspot.com!!! 3 cheeersss!! : ) : ) : )I watched the exorcism of emily rose just a few months back.And out of many horror shows i have seen before. This was the only one to freak me out like crap. Not coz of the scary ghost scenes. But of the fact that this demonic possession stuffs do actually happen. ANd the very fact my own dad deals with demonic possession. The very same type of demonic possession my dad deals with. So i would be a fool to say that such stuffs don't happen. Coz it truly does. There is a saying "Show man a demon and he will believe in God". I cant agree more with this sentence. I would really be slapping my own face if i said that. Like heck i had encounters with these things before. How can i meet some guy on the streets and say that he doesnt exist? Stupid right?Not that i really care right? Its not like im desperate for a gf rite? Why you make it sound as if im a flirt? Okay la, now i am only accepting guys comments okay? Not like you are my gf oso? No need to kpkb me just coz i accept girls comments rite? I only talk to girls i know on friendster alrite? And its not like i never talk to the guys rite? I wrote comments to all my guy frens. How many replied? You are not my gf so stop treating me like im ur bf orite? I can have as many gf's as i want and its not any of ur authority to say anything. I read Venus blog. She told me to do the same essay for her. So i will do it just to be fair : ) But it might be short, coz im kinda late. Need to meet Hong at the mrt later pass him stuff. Why i talked to Venus? -->hmmm,i usually hear naomi talking bout her lao gong this lao gong that. Some Venus gal. So saw her profile from yulia's friendster i think. Click, see le then leave. Den she sent me a message asking me why i nvr leave comment all bla bla bla. BAM!! And we start talking -_-What i dun like about Venus? --->Always making nicknames bout me. I still not very sure how the polar bear thing came oso. lol!! hmmmm, nothing much i dun like bout her la. What i like about Venus?--->Someone who always talk to me lors. haha. Aiya, we crap about almost everything. Talk almost everyday. She fun to talk to ah. eh, short? Tanned? Dunno ehs? She doesnt show me much of herself. So yea. loL!!!!!!!!This pretty much seems like a quiz liao sia!! So im gonna tag 5 people to do!! WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!! nah, im just kidding ....*Gives a serious look*
8:00 AM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
I just realised my blogging style has changed due to the fact that more people are coming to my blog. I used to keep my blog discreet and low profile so that i can really blog my inner thoughts. But nowadays i blog more on the surface stuff due to the fact i have more people to be considerate of when i blog. But i am writing this entry with you readers in mind too : )So now, i was in school today listening to music on my laptop den i saw this link in my song "Fall" By Ina. On the album picture it had the link www.loserboimusic.blogspot.com . Thinking it was some cool blog that i can download songs in, i decided to give the blog a try. But to my surprise it was a christian blog. A site opened by a Christian. Non profit website. In this site they had true facts about prophecies written in the bible 2000 - a few thousand years ago. And the traced the prophecies and found out that almost all of the prophecies have been fulfilled. Go read the blog if you want to. Im not making that website a pop up windoow so as to force everyone to read it. Its entirely optional if you wanna read it. Anw's. Reading it i realised how much i have changed. When i read it in the past i would be filled with joy. Now that i just read it, i couldnt help but feel that much fear inside. So much fear it was even worse that failing my modules. Then i came to accept the fact i have seriously changed for the very very worse. For the past few months people have been telling me i have changed for the worse. My sister, mom, dad, Sq, Patrick, Neng wei and the people close to me. Then i start wondering what have i been doing these past few months? close to a year i have been doing all sorts of nonsense. And i do things that Christians dun do. And to be honest, i had no good reasons for doing those rubbish shit crap stuffs. I started smoking again coz of a girl. And even up till today i am still smoking. Why? I really dunno why? I knew deep down inside that i dun get hurt very long bcoz of girls. I move on with life fast. I am not stressed nor heart broken that i shud be smoking. Honestly, i have a very good and happy family and very understanding parents. And at this stage i dun have any girls in my heart i shud be heartbroken about. So then, why am i still smoking? Although i rarely have conflicts with people close to me, i dun have much personality clashes with people, i know deep down inside i am not as nice as people who dunno me well potray me to be. I compared myself from my year 1 poly to my second year in poly. That much difference is shocking. I was sure of my target in year 1, and when i reached year 2 i lost track. Simple reason i guess, i wanted to experience the worldly life. And now that i experienced it i have been robbed of all the good things in life i looked forward to. I cant help but feel empty deep down inside. Like how sometimes Patrick tell me. I understand, i really am not happy the way i am. Its like i live to die. I just do the things i enjoy and then pass each day like that. But i realise doing the things i enjoy is killing me inside. No doubt i enjoy smoking, scolding vulgarities and looking at girls. But why is that hole deep inside my heart getting to be so big?The reason why only people close to me can tell if something was wrong with me is solely based on one reason. My principal of living. Which is pretty much close to how Patrick lives. I am really very sad deep inside. I feel like life is full of nonsense. But doesnt mean i feel shitty i show it to everyone. Simple logic is that i give people the best of me. And i am still proud of the fact i still live by that principle. But sometimes i can never handle the sadness deep inside and i tend to show it. Thats how people close to me can tell if something was wrong with me. Its about time i start swimming back ashore. I Just crushed my pack of cigarettes. My wallet is crying no doubt. But i rather my wallet cry than my family cry when im on my bed dying. Im not going to say here that i can really succeed in quitting. But i have good reason for doing so. I guess sometimes in life i tend to be so desperate to correct our flaws that i try to correct everything at one shot. Is like aiming to be perfect before i reach age 21. Somethign like that. But i realised i have seriously way too many flaws that i can never perfect them even if i die. Den i realised i have been trying to make humongous leaps for way too many times. Thats why i get to be so discouraged each time i make a mistake. Which is why im going to take things slowly now. One step at a time, till the day i die. Slow and steady : )Im sorry its a very long and emotional post. I had to get things off my chest and after all, this was my original style of blogging. My inner thoughts. And im not planning to give up my purpose of blogging at all. So dun be shocked if you are going " OMFG NATHAN THINKS SO DEEPLY??? The fact is yes i do think very deeply. People think of me as a "Happy go lucky" type of person. Yeah, partially true. Partially true. Sorry for the extreme long post. Nights people : )
2:05 AM
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Guys are mostly simple creatures. We dun think the same way as girls do on relationships. For example, its okay if girls tell us guys that we wear the same thing everyday. Most guys dun care. Actually most guys realli wear the same thing everyday. But guys! never tell a girl she wears the same thing everyday. It will freaking piss her off.So then, in a relationship, most girls expect the guys to love them with undivided attention. But guys on the other hand have to divide their attention between frens, girls, family, tv, sleep and so on and so forth. Girls remembers dates while guys always forgets dates. But still, it never changes the fact that the guy still loves the girl no matter how he divides his attention. I usually take the bus to school. And surprisingly, i realised today that i have been taking the bus 185 to school for close to 2 years. And i realised i spend most of my time in 185 standing. I went to school today and i got a seat, and this very uncomfortable feelign came over me. Its like something new. Den i realised it was my first time sitting in the bus 185. 0.0!!! i smiled to myself and enjoy the seat throughout the journey. WHy? Coz i was in the afternoon bus when no one would take the bus : )Taking the bus for close to 18 years, i realised one very fact. Singaporeans who come on the bus are like playing muscial chairs. You have to fucking get a seat or else they would be kicked out of the bus like that. I mean come on people, young or old, its okay if you have to stand rite? I understand old people who rush for seats. They are old and need seats. But what about bangalah workers and young people? Do you people have to rush for seats like you would win a car if you foudna seat? Seriously, kiasu swa!
5:54 PM
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Seriously, im getting to be very pissed now. Doing my FOOP work now. Last fucking lab le. so many problems arh. Ask people send me. 3 of my frens send a program that is wrong and not working de. Neng wei send me a program dat is done halfway. Funny rite?? send a program send halfway de. Its like asking someone for 10 dollars and the person gives you a 5 dollar note den looks at u expecting you to go "yay! I got a 10 dollar!". fuck la. Den now i got some virus from God knows what web and my windows explorer nt working. Cant listen to songs, cant open school work. And i cant even reformat my laptop now. haiz. Think i after i submit my foop lab 6A and B den reformat le. Since i got no use for the com after this fri. I recently got alot of comments that i talk to girls alot on friendster and in real life. I look at my friendster and i realised seriously alot of girls comments sia. got like 400/500 is girl de comments. Open my phone inbox and i realised all my inbox is girls de sms. 97% is girls de sms. Den i realised i really am becoming a playboy without knowing it. No good. Did a friendster count when i was free just now. hmmm, current friend count is 406. 357/406 are people whom i know. The rest are people whom i dun even know. so out of 59 i counted 42 whom added me. The remaining of which are people whom i dunno and added. So if you wanna call me a friendster spammer den i am only guilty of adding 17 people whom i dunno. So watch ur mouth when u say i chee hong. Exmas starts 18 aug! 12 more days. sob. After that holiday le. haiz. Oh well, dinner is done. After dinner going out to meet kai and long po an for kopi session. haiz. nowadys keep going out. sian.
7:26 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
hahaha!! This is offcially my 300th post!! And kind of like my 2nd year of blogging. haha. My first post was on 09 august. which is national day. So i guess its still 6 more days to go? But i guess i have made a successfu blog!! 3 cheers!! haha.
Yesterday went to jun heng party. okay okay party. haha, Hanged around edwin edmund all. played card games. Then went home.
Today went to church, normal church day. My primary school mate came!! haha. so long no see, but he still looks the same eh. haha. den after that eat at carl jr den after that go back church study with spencer and jamie. hahaha!! study 1 hour camwhore 30 mins. Took 141 pics today sia. damn gay sia. haha. Upload the nicest pics later. haha.
Some malay girl asked for my no at the mrt station. lol!! Too bad she looks damn minah sia. Not my type. rejcted her. No point i guess. But if got chio bu, i will give one. wahahhahah
chatting with venus on msn now. She just said im damn hawt!! omfg can!??? She said im hot!! lolololol!! I took the opportunity to take a Screenshot of it. wahahhaah!!
Proof is all taken black and white and some other colours too!! hahaha. Venus ah Venus. u shudnt have said that girl. hahahhaOkay!! I took around 141 pics today. So its close to impossible that i upload all of em rite?? haha. So i'll upload some only : )
Nites people!! : )
9:05 PM
