Tuesday, April 29, 2008
I dun get how can a girl be kissing another guy at the park at night. Lie to the guy she doesnt have a boyfriend. And then the guy finds out she has a guy. And she can pretend like nothing happened?
Fuck you, i can have sex with another girl and its none of your business. Just coz i was walking with another girl hotter than you means she's my gf? Even so, whats that gotta do with you? If walking with another hot girl means she's my gf then i have tons and tons of girlfriends oredi.
Its not like i really care whether you have tons of bf or wad. I get over people very fast and i was oredi over you in like 22 hours?
If you hate me den dun be my friend la. Why pretend to be my fren? I have tons of frens oredi and losing one aint that much of a deal to me. Not like i treasure your friendship or what. Pack your bag and go home fuck yourself.
You yourself also smoke lei. You see me smoking up to u to criticise me arhs? eh fucker, i was smoking even before you know how to masturbate. If you just light criticism i dun mind la. But no need insult until my mother right? I smoke means i bad boy isit? means i hopeless isit? Think about it leis. Dun anyhow.
11:48 PM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
I hate it when people give me those eyes like im hopeless.
I hate it when people view me like a criminal.
I hate it when my back hair stands and i look like a fucking cellphone.
I hate it when i turn on the tv and its on kids central and they are playing "Hi-5"
I hate it when Singapore produces yet another dumb show.
I hate it when people meet me and never fails to pang seh.
Fuck the world. Join P.A.P
10:20 PM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Im not going to play her games anymore knowing i am not interested in her games. Im not going to waste my time on people like her.
11:23 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Feels weird i guess. Me and her. I dun even know which side of the world she belongs to. Just this very big decision i have to make that decides my future. Its difficult when you both have a liking for each other, you both see each other everyday. den u suddenly realise she isnt your type of girl. But something bout her that draws you to her. She clearly isnt my type at all. But i just wanna be with her. weird?
I know i cannot ask for much in a girl. I am a person with alot of ex girlfriends. But one thing is that i am a virgin. And all i ask is that i hope for a virgin girl just like me. Sounds difficult?
I prefer to keep my blog on the low profile. For things i say in my blog can soemtimes be very personal and sensitive. So i really appreciate if readers treat these words with respect and sensitivity. Instead of carrying it out and treating it like a joke. thanks guys.
9:58 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I am much aware that somebody has been using my name to tag on other people's blog. I went blog surfing yesterday coz i was free and i noticed somebody has been using my name to tag on other people's blog. So one thing i noticed is that i dun type my own name as "Nathan". Look carefully and you'll notice i have my own style of typing. So please dun take it as it is me tagging on your blog. Coz if you know me well i rarely tag other people's blog. So thanks. But then again, somebody actually wanted to imitate me!! Such an honour. haha. Must be some loser who wants to get ahead in life but dunno how i guess.
Okay!! On to the next topic. The girls!! Hahahahhahaha!! Somehow there is some chemistry between the girl in my class and me. She smiled at me yo!! haha. happy happy happy.
Okay!! i took on entrepreneur on my IS module. Stupid me chose ECE blog and i ended up with weird people as my classmates. No chio bu. 2 only. But then again, we'll see how. At least this sem is so much better than last semester.
Went 429 and Xin an treated chicken rice hohhohohoho! Happy happy and full full full.
8:59 PM
Monday, April 14, 2008
hahahahhahah!! No no. It should be HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! Happy happy happy!!! I never knew this would happen but there are finally pretty girls in my class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahhahahahahha!! Not say over the top like those who are getting fucked by hundreds of boyfriends that type. But sweet looking girls and theya re not from china!! Genuine singaporeans man!!! I mean, woman. At least it wun feel like a desert in class while its like a garden outside. Now i am like in a mini garden, but step out is a bigger garden!! hahahhaha!!
7:54 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
I finally am done with whatever i need to buy. hahahahhaha!! Todays shopping trip was cut into 2. After service went to buy my bag. Got this Puma bag for $122. Expensive larrrrs. But its good quality and looks nice. So i bought it. Can put laptop and all. good enough le. Den decided to go easy on my shoe. sO spent say...$60 on my shoe. Converse again. Coz it suits my style. Guess i gotta start going easy le. Pay still have yet to come. damn it. Second shopping trip was after small group, met up with zi jing den go shopping. Fun and funny. But i got wad i needed.
So then again, school freaking starts 2moro. And it starts off on a very very very very wrong note tomoro. I am like wad the hell, first lesson is a lecture already!!!??? Engineering maths some more???!!!! BUt combine lecture is good i guess, can see all of my people i have yet to meet on the first day. So no need to split up so many times. Mah fan. Getting a new class, but i just dun get why am i the same class as the weirdos from my ex class???!!ah damn it.
Funny how everywhere i go she is there. Just waiting for attention to be on her. But its irritating seriously. Whatever she is doing is so not cute. But whatever? She thinks its cute, i think its childish and disgusting.
Oh yes, one last note to a particular idiot out there. Dun use the term A.S.T like its some cool thing to use. You are just a kid who cant even watch NC-16 movies screw you. And even so u just went in, so you are just a xiao gina in that gang. One dat nobody cares about whether you are there or not?? Get real asshole, these people pull you in just so they have little kids like you to order and step around. You think they really wanted you in just because you are of any use? At the age of 14 you are thinking of this things? Get real you little son of a bitch, you should be playing with your toys. So run on home and be a good boy.
9:46 PM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
oh hell. Timetable is ready and all modules are up. damn it. Im officially in year 2 of ngee ann life. But seriously, the modules im getting this sem is weird. Weird names like tele-communication principles. weird names and seriously long. I dun even wanna type them out here. haiz. Dun we all just hate killer modules?
So then again. School starts on monday. And until now i still haven had my stuff all ready. Bag and shoe blah blah blah. Im not a person who likes shopping i guess. We'll see how. Have my eyes on this puma bag. BUt really, the moment you start buying things with your own hard earned money everything changes. Tend to think twice about it now. But then again, i am not going to go easy now. Need stuff that will last and is good. So i dun really mind spending on it.
I am very demoralised by the fact that i keep attracting gays. I am not very sure about this but why are the guys more daring than the gals on this matter? What the fuck is wrong with these guys?? Is yanking another guy's penis very fun? Why not yank your own? You know what? Fuck the gays. I had it with weird messages from guys. Screw you all motherfuckers. Find someone else.
10:53 PM
Monday, April 07, 2008
Work just ended. The one at Funan It mall. Nothing much there. Sales wasnt as good as the one at suntec. But nevertheless, i managed to sell 9 desktops in 4 days. Seriously, only an idiot would sell desktops at funan it mall. Everyone is selling the same thing. screw our big big boss. Not my boss, cedric. Its the other boss. But even so, i really do have a good boss. At least he will make sure we dun go home without any commision. He gave a few sales to me so i would earn commision. haha. But at least i know i worked very hard for that sales.
So then, Cedric finalised my commision for the IT fair and confirmed i earn $390 for commision. Plus my $120 basic i earned a total of $510. haha. I am very happi with the results and it is exactly what i expected. Just slightly better. goodie goodie. But all my pay would be coming in by this month. oh wells.
I am not going to say that there are many pretty girls worth noticing at the IT fair. Actually, one or 2. But then again. Didnt really bother socialising much with other shops people. Starting to hate these fairs without pretty gals. So boring.
7:18 PM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
I never expected death to be such a close part of my life when i at such a young age. But somehow death just keeps hounding at my door. First it wanted to claim my life. Now it is demanding the lives of my loved ones.
How would you feel if you have to live your daily life with the fear of losing your parents. The feeling that one day you would be left alone with your siblings to deal with life. It really hurts alot if your parents kept hinting that they will be gone soon. And it will be very soon. Each time we go out they would drop hints that they would be leaving soon. I am onli 18 years old. And i am the youngest and only son. I barely had enough time to fulfil my responsibilities as a son. I wasted 16 years of my life hating them. Now only knowing that i barely even have 7 years left to be good to them.
My family has always been poor and sometimes we had to scrimp and save just to survive. But even so, my parents have taught me never to greed for money and never live for money and we must always have honour and integrity even though we are poor. Countless times i was insulted because i am poor and didnt have the chance to live the wealthy lifestyle like my bastard friends. But because of these i never once had high regards for money. But i have this very big dream that i want to take care of my own parents when they retire. I want to give them the good life of being stress free and i wanted to give them the best food. I wanted them to have a chance to play with my kids and enjoy retirement life. But it all comes down that i will not be able to fulfil this dream that i have. Knowing that they might very well be gone even before i reach 21.
My Dad knew very well right from the start that the path he chose will never end in a happy way. The life of a pastor is a poor one and ends in tragic. But even so, my Dad until today has kept his strength of dying for the Lord. No matter how gruesome. His choice was made when he was young and he honoured his choice till his death. To me, he truly is a man of man. Because of him i knew that my choice that i would soon have to make would require alot of sacrifice. But i am not scared. I never really cared if i die or not. But at least i would really be a happy man if i died the same way my dad will die. And i wanted to live the life he lived.
We all know very well what pain comes with every choice that we make. My Dad endured the pain and he established the Wan family. Because of him he broke off from the Original wan family tradition of worshipping idols. He gave us 3 a new life, a life of truth. Because he was rejected by his family i was accepted into the family. What greater honour could there be than this??
I know that it is easy to hate God knowing that your own father will die because of his service to God. But who are we to choose how we will die? But i know very well we can choose what to die for. If my father died because of his service to God, than i would not mind being martyred because of God too. At least i know that i will die for a very good cause no matter how gruesome but only because of my service to God. If you ask me, this is how a man should live his life.
My father is a very well respectable man, but yet never once has he boasted of his strength and achievements. But because of that his children never boasted of our background. People think that being a pastor's child is a good thing. I think so too. But i will never boast about it because even my own father never did.
I am very sorry for the long post, but i had to write it down. Afterall, which man could look at the face of death and smile?? And continue working for what very well could kill him? That man is truly a man of man.
4:06 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Its very funny how the police cant find mas selamat, yet his posters are up everywhere in singapore. If you ask me, theres no looking, he's everywhere.
Its aprils fool. Not a very good day if u ask me. I am sorta up to some mischief. Time to screw the people i hate.
But really, its giving me a very big headache. I am now stuck with 2 things that i need to buy. A bag and shoe. I am stuck in between buying either a Nike shoe and crumpler bag, or something much more lower budget. I do not have a budget in the things that i wanna buy. I have a very high budget coz my pay allows me to do so. But after all, i worked so hard for my pay, it really gives me a heartache to spend so much on these things. Yes it is a neccessity. Both a bag and shoe i need very badly. But i guess when it comes to spending your hard earned money, you tend to be very thrifty and careful. I did not come from a very rich family, so i have to be very careful with how i spend my money. thats why i am having such a big headache now.
1:57 AM
