Sunday, November 26, 2006
As far as i am concerned. I am not a nice guy and thank you people i am aware of it myself. I will not argue with someone who claims dat i am not a nice guy. And even so. I knw i dun care and i knw i deserve it. I dun care if the girl i like tries to avoid me. I dun care if people try to avoid me either. I knw loneliness like a fren and i dun mind being alone. But honestly. This is just a post to those out dere judging on what others have done wrong. Or lets just say its a plead. Sometimes as far as i am concerned. No one is super super wise except God himself. And i can bet my head dat there r times u do not understand one's person's difficulties. So this is just a kind reminder. DO not judge them on what they have done wrong. Even if u cant understand. Shut up. speech is silver. silence is Gold. I am aware of the fact i am a rotten jerk and i do not go around asking for sympathy and neither do i need them. People find me weird. that i knw. I dun communicate with gerls well and time and time again i see girls avoiding me because they got the wrong idea of me. I face the truth tht i am not a lady killer. i dun care much if i dun get the gerl of my dreams because i am aware of it that i dun deserve a girlfriend. Sympathy is the last thing i need. this entry is just a clarification to what others think of me.
Firstly. I dun carry my thoughts and messages well to the other party. And girls end up misunderstanding me. And this is a clarification to u people out there. I am someone who hates a one sided love relationship and i mean it. If the other party has no feelings for me. I'd abondon it. A forced love is the last thing i need in my love life. People think i am a playboy and this is another clarification. It was my ex girlfriends who abondon me. Not the other way round. Dun worry abt me chasing u. Coz i will nvr chase girls who hv no feelings for me. EVen if the girl has a potential to be my future wife.
Secondly. I dun care if u see me as weird. I may like to be alone at times. But whatever i do. I have a reason. I may be quiet and like to be alone at times. I am not a sociable person by nature. Forgive me if i am veri quiet when i am with u. Sometimes i just wan to slow down and hear what my heart has to say to me. Sometimes i just wan to be playful and crazy to let my emotions and pain in my heart out.
Quietness calms my heart and a cheerful character sends warmth into my cold heart.
10:57 PM
