Tuesday, November 28, 2006
So i was just having my afternoon nap and somehow in my dream i was bugged to make this entry. SO here i am. Somehow recently i have lost track of my life and i am unaware abt it. Its scary. IT truly is. I guess it was onli yesterday i was rudely awoken by my sisters words. I guess all this while i was in my own trance abt hw much i suffered dat i lost track on those people who suffered with me. Is that why i feel that emptiness inside me all the time? I have becomed too clouded to see other people who are around me dat i only see myself. I guess i have to start making a stand now. The fact that i have broke contact wit other guys makes it even easier to start afresh. 3 cheers for that! I guess the fact that i went back to smoking is my fault. No one t blame. I dyed my hair knowing of the consequences makes thigns even worse. sometimes i wonder am i back to where i started.? am i searching for sympathy from others? i guess i have been truly selfish to others. But heck!! Like my Dad alwyas said. making a mistake is one thing. standing up and starting afresh is another things. 3 cheers for the holidays! I guess my sis is right. NOt time to clear up my mistake. but time to do the right thing. SO i will just leave everything behind and start afresh. time to start fighting again on a clear mind! 3 cheers for the rude awakening!
9:37 PM
