Monday, February 05, 2007
These dreams every night. Weird. But i doubt having the same dream that you had 3 months ago and having it now for 3 consecutive days. somehow i am still wondering who that woman in my dream is. speaking with an unknown language. Dreams are beautiful. But somehow its highly impossible that dreams mean anything. But this dream is freaking weird. It lasts for onli a while and i always wake up at the same point. Somehow i hope i will be seeing her again tonight and hopefully get some things straight. Somehow i find God always so full of surprises. All i wanted was a perfect life. but he gave me a life full of struggling. All i wanted was peace in my heart but he gave me questions that questioned my inner being. all i wanted was the best things on earth but he gave me lesser. But all these worked out to be the best for me. Was practicing roller blading today on Vincents roller blades. I was all alone and having a sense of sick fun. falling down all the time and losing my control. but never had God spoke to me so much. at least i didnt expect him to speak so much to me while i was practicing roller blading. I guess my life has been like roller blading. falling down all the time and getting hurt. But everytime i fell. all he would tell me was to get up. to keep trying no matter how much it hurts. todays roller blading made me realise i am no pro christian. I guess i still am at the begginers stage. always falling and slowly learning. But i guess Vincent is right. if u dun fall. it wun be called roller blading. same as me being a christian. If i dun fall. i wouldnt be called a christian. I would be called God oredi. But i guess i am not. : ) 3 cheers for that! hmm. learning from everyday experiences. and applying them into our lives. I fell tons of times that i even lost count. hmm. but i guess all that matters is that i stand up after every fall and keep on going. i believe one day i will make it. Went to city harvest with Ki hui last saturday and it was hell of an experience. i wouldnt speak of it anymore. but i am glad its all over. Never will i wanna go back again. brrr. I know that my life wun last for long now. just like everyone reading this blog. No one lives a long life. Just like how God has been living forever. My life compared to him is nothing and freaking short. haha. 3 cheers for our short lives! we wun get fucked by this world too much! just finish this race and enjoy eternity.
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