Was with Kai just now when my parents came to pass me my IC at the coffee shop. And my mum started scolding me for being so blur. And Kai lost his appetite to eat coz of my parents. lol! But i guess Kai was right. i have good parents who care for me. And i sense sadness when he said that i have good parents. i wouldnt be surprised. all he wanted was family love i guess. Does having a lover makes u a better person? i seriously doubt so. Why go crazy over someone when u know the relationship will end sooner or later? i am blessed to be able to love Jesus and know that the relationship will last for eternity. now thats something i would want to invest my life in. A girlfriend is something like a side dish. an extra. Like french fries. But the hamburger is the main menu. haha. But still. I would want my partner to be a happy person and blessed one. So time to keep on changing. Soemtimes i feel so blessed i am living in the end of ages. then i have a high chance of not needing to die. i might just be raptured and no need to die!! WHEEEEEEE! haha. but i guess if i have to die horribly then i guess i'll just do it. I made a prayer last night and i sure hope that God fulfils it. I prayed that if i were to grow up to rebel against God, Then i really hope that someone kills me before that happens. I dun mind dying horribly rather than rebel against God.
