Got my new laptop just a few days ago and i guess i dun really deserve it. but my Dad wanted me to have it. But i guess my sis Grace is right. Its a gift. Dad's gift to me. makes me realise the same thing about God's gift and grace upon me. i dun deserve it, yet it was given to me because of love. I am responsible for destroying many lives yet because of his grace i am enjoying a new beginning in life. amazing grace, how can it be? makes me realise i really have nothing to be proud about. all this experience i had because of my secondary school trauma is considered nothing to me anymore. nothing to be proud about because i quit smoking, coz it was God's strength and grace upon me. Nothing to be proud about because i went through persecution, coz it was God who carried me on his arms through the storm. come to think about it, i can only be proud of this God i have in my life. strong and loving. Nothing can explain my gratitude now. But all i can do is to pass on this love to other people : ) I am given a gift of making other people happy by laughing, then i will use it no matter what people think about me, it is God's gift and i wun be ashamed of it. God didnt carry me through the storm for nothing. there is always a lesson behind it. I thought i'd just end off this entry with a story that God taught me on leadership. -There were once 2 people, "A" & "B", -"A" was someone whom everyone thought of as a potential great leader, always serving in front of people in great ways! -"B" was someone who was never noticed in church, always walking around unoticed at all times, people thought nothing of him and some even despised him. -Both were soon into full time ministry serving the Lord a few years down the road. -20 years after they started serving, "A's" church closed down and and his congregation was lost, but "B's" church grew in great numbers and "B" recieved plenty of blessings from the Lord! -"A" saw how successful "B" was and was depressed greatly and could not understand why these had to happen. Soon "A" commited suicide because of depression. -"A" then stood beside Jesus in heaven and he asked him why did he fail his ministry. This was what Jesus replied him in a soft and loving manner : "My son, 20 years before you started serving me, everyone noticed and praised you for the great things you have done for the people. But you did not notice that you were doing it just for the people and not for me. People saw ur good acts and praised you and thought great of you, but never once did you give glory to me who gave you the strength to do all those acts. You refused to do small acts of humility like even clearing the dustbin in the worship hall and waited for people to clear it. " "A" replied : "But my Lord Jesus! 'B' didnt do anything at all! I never once saw him do any acts of service to you my Lord!" Jesus replied in the same manner, this time putting his arms around "A" : "Child, did i not mentioned in the scripture that whatever good acts you do, do not let your right hand know what your left hand is doing? 'B' did just that, everytime before service who put up the chairs? did you think it was the chairs who put themselves in an orderly manner? No my child, 'B' would arrive 2 hours before every service to put up the chairs, then quietly slip through the doors to have his lunch. Who do you think cleared the dustbin and cleaned the floor so that people can worship me in peace?It was 'B'! He served me in humble ways not for man to see, but for me. 'B' kept you in prayer every day of his life to keep you from the evil one and prayed for me to forgive you. It was because of his prayer that you are here beside me today. Each of you have recieved your rewards in full my child. I kept to my promise that the humble will be exalted and the proud will be humbled! So my frens. I sure hope you got the message across. Its okay if you think that i am of no authority to speak of leadership, even i am of no authority to have this laptop to type out this entry late night. But i pray that you would keep this story in your heart my fren who is reading this. This entry is purely for your reading pleasure and learning . All other motives of mine will be judged by Jesus himself.
