Funny how when i started dating i wanted absolute control over a girl. I would fight with her for the dumbest reason and thinking that it would make us closer. I wanted total submission of her to me. But one of them stood up against my self proclaimed reign of power over her and we fought all the time and both refused to say sorry. I thought it would make us closer but it was only making things worse. I only realisd how childish i was 3 years after that relationship. After 7 failed relationships. I can only look back on how foolish i was and regret it. Never proclaim power over a girl. They are humans too with feelings. Both man and woman are equal when they stand before God. So Klinton, dun fight with Aini anymore. Learn to shower her with love ya? She loves you and you know it bro. Dun drive her away with useless fights but attract her with love ya?
This attraction to her. Its getting so much more stronger. Can you give me a reason to say no? But i rather no one give me any advice. Coz i might just reject and ignore them and go after her.
To be honest, i dream to be in heaven. But i can never imagine what it is like in heaven. I want a close relationship with God but i can never fully picture God's love. Who can? This amazing thing called "love".
Am i getting proud? If i am, why am i proud of the wrong things? Why do we have pride? Why isit that difficult to learn humility? Why does a 16 year friendship turn into backstabbing because of the fight of leadership? Why do you put the desire of having sex into me but ask me resist it? Why do you put attraction to another individual in me but want me to resist it? How long more do i have to wait??
