I am just going to say that i do like her. But she's not my everything. I mean, lets face it. Nowadays we youngsters keep saying that their bf/gf is their everything. If you are saying that, you are slapping your own parents. What were you living on before you even met ur lover? Wun you live just as normal even without him or her? Sometimes i dunno why i am in this church i am in now. Everyone is so busy with studying and school and basically, Most are nerds. Sorry to those who are reading this blog who are in my church. But i am just going to state this fact that many before me has noticed. Going to church and hanging out with my old gang is totally of 2 different world. In church, so many thing are constraint inside of me and people around you just makes you feel like scolding vulgarities is like a big thing. Super rude and uncivilised. Whereas going out with old gang friends is maybe where i can really talk what i want and they listen. I miss those days with my old gang where we have fun together and we fight together. But maybe i am just going to be allowed to just miss it. I cant turn back now. Not after how far i have gone. Dun be surprised this is coming out of a christian. We have our internal war's to fight too. I told someone i am not going to stay in this church till death. And that has a high chance of happening. I told someone that my time is not up yet. You might think its a joke, but i mean it, my time is not yet up. I am not ready
