I just realised that even after so long that i repented, i still behave like a gangster at some times. And i just get woken up from the fact that i am no longer a gangster. Its just that sometimes people tend to get very irritating that they find fault with u for no reason. Its just like this morning when i was with zhao pei and we were waiting for daryl. Then these 2 guys from class D1 walked past us and 1 of em started staring at us for no reason. And i find myself all hyped up and ready to fight. And while in lecture some D1 people get very irritating that i am all ready to fight at the littlest faults they commit. I am surely not setting an example for the younger ones in my church. Its just that some bits of me in my past is still inside me. And i dun get why people call me crazy when i have done nothing wrong. I am not emotionless or emo. I just hold back my emotions. I dun yearn to be cool in school or popular. I just want my poly school years to be one free from trouble. That i do not repeat my mistakes in secondary school. Isit wrong of me to do that? Why are you people provoking me to fight? Ding yan made me realise what the archives at the side of my blog is for. And i started reading entries from my past. interesting. Really! very interesting. That i was no better than anyone. And even until today i am still that no one i was before. Haiz. Even with my avoiding of getting into trouble with school. i Still am getting into trouble for without knowing it. Teachers having bad impressions of me and writing comments about me in the list, to deducting marks for being late for workshop and getting debarrment soon for low attendance. damn. Just cant seem to get away from stupid and dumb people nowadays. But its good to know nice people in ngee ann with the majority of stupid people. SHAHIDAH!! keng leong, harris, neng wei, and my 2 close pals who live in silence everyday. Eugene and Poh khae!! I have 2 mei mei's and 3 younger brothers in church. Naomi, belindarh, , ding yan, elliot and nocholas. Damn i just love all of em!! haha
