I lost touch today and i lost control of myself. For someone bullied my mei mei and i got all hyped up to get even and fight. And when its all over, i realised that i have done what i have been avoiding to do. But having control of 3 gangs in something i never had in my past. This power, how i yearn to use these power to crush the ones who offended me in my school. I do not need any respect from people who do not respect themselves. Maybe one day those fools will find themselves crawling at my knees surrounded by what i have ready to lick my shoes just begging for me to let them live. Surely you think that i have no reason not to call these gang down. You deserve every bit of what i can offer you. You people are nerds who think that life is perfect that you can bully anyone you want to, but you do not know that you are the ones who make this life difficult for innocent people. After what i have typed at the above, i saw my handphone screen and i saw both my mei mei's pictures and i saw Nick, ding yan's and elliot photo's. I really do love them all and i want to see all 5 of them grow up to be wise people. And i realise what i did today by calling up people from my past is totally setting a bad example for them. At least to my mei mei who got bullied. Maybe i shud just give up the idea of crushing anyone in my school. I rather i get humiliated than setting a bad example to my younger brother's and sisters. I rather get crushed than let them crush anyone. I love all of them, but i am not a good example at all. Can i learn my Lord? Can you teach me what is the right path i shud walk? And even if i go down the wrong path again, can you keep all of them from walking down the wrong path? Can you keep them from the evil one?
