Yes i am partly responsible for the mess you are in now. And i will take responsibility and i will help you clear it. I will never forsake you my brother, yes you, the brother whom i knew whom stood up for me and guarded me with your life. And even with the mess you are in now i will do the same and guard you with my life. I am sorry that i left without much explaination a year ago. But i promised you explaination if i ever do see you again. I hope that the life i am leading now is worthy enough of explaination to you. A year ago i left bcoz i knew the type of life i was planning to have was'nt easy to explain with words. And i desire so much for you to have the same type of life i have. To have a reason for suffering and know that it is worthwhile. My Brothers of my past to whom may be reading this entry, when we were leading a life of darkness we had the risk of dying under knifes and horrible deaths. But because of Christ i will have the same risk of dying the same horrible death. But i will have a reason for dying that same death i had risked before. But i will suffer that death with happiness and contentment. My brothers, i hope now u all understand that i left not because i didnt want to die a horrible death. But i wanted to die the same death with happiness. Yes my brothers and sisters whom are reading this blog. I may be very tired out and drained off. And yes i do complain about it. But i have found what i have been searching for. To suffer for a reason and cause knowing that i can bring this accountability to the next life. And yes i suffer for a reason. Not without reason. May you lead the same life in Christ and experience his death and ressurection.
