Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Why are you so proud of your father's achievement? Why do you think you are greater by the fact that your dad is rich and is a leader? Why are you so proud of yourself that he drives a nice and expensive car? Does it make you better than anyone of us? Was any of those achievement YOURS to begin with? Was it your hands that earned the money and reputation? Why then are you laughing at me just because i am poor and have nothing to be proud about? Why are you laughing at me for the fact that my Dad drives a van? Are you then better than anyone?I have seen people who lead lives where they praise God for good things upon them.But curse God the moment shit happens. I was one of them myself. See back the blog entries and you will see countless entries of me scolding him. But the Lord has shown me that it wouldnt work anymore the moment i entrusted my life to him. The moment i trusted my life to him shit keeps happening. Even more shit than before!. My hands were cuffed up and i was brought to places i never wanted to be in. I was pulled into situations i hated to be in. I was held back from things i wanted and desired to do greatly. I was laughed at mercilessly for nothing i did. I was thrown into depression always walking around this world with a sinking heart. Each day i go to school with a troubled heart and each night i sleep with fear. But it has taught my heart to praise him in the storm. It has taught my heart not to fear death but look forward to it. But i would have to hang on for my time is not up yet until i finish my job. It has'nt even begun as far as i can see. After all, the apostles never got to enjoy life the moment they started mnistries. Not one enjoyed a good life nor richness. Why are you decieved that christianity promises a good life? Do you think that christians lead a good life. At least true christians.
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