I sometimes wonder if God knew what state i am in. I dun even know what state i am in now. Am i with him? Or not? Am i Christian? Or not? But nonetheless, that calling is still there and it still remains. Which scares me about my future. Who am i going to be?
They say i am happy now. But i still wonder why there is still this emptiness in my heart. I dun mind making myself look stupid to make people laugh and make them happy. But why is there nothing that is filling this empty heart?
I sometimes wonder why i am not laughing as much as i used to. I watch a movie, everyone in the theatre laughs, but i am the only one who doesnt seem to find it funny. weird?
