I was eating with my godsis just now then we were just talking bout stuffs. Then i start wondering who i actually was.
Im just going to face it that having 9 ex girlfriends isnt a very glorious thing to have. I didnt even know why either when i actually once loved only 1 or 2 of my ex. Im not going to redeem myself here but im just going to say that i indeed was a playboy in my secondary school days. Then i start wondering why did i actually have so mani gf's when they arent actually gf's.
People say i am experienced with girls considering i have so many ex - "gf's". But i dun want to lie to myself to say i am experienced with this kind of shit. The actual fact is that i am not experienced or whatever you people call it. I mean, i had 9 ex gf's and i got dumped 8 freaking times!! Until my most recent one then things were slightly different.
I am just going to be very honest here is that i took my first one very seriously, and after i got cheated by her i was freaking scared to put in too much into relationships. Following her i had 6 gf's in a period of 3 months and i just didnt care about any of em. Seriously, i dun evenknow why we began? These 6 ex, the longest lasted 2 weeks, and the common thing in this is that i didnt care about them. Which goes to explain why they dumped me. Then my 8th one was my first one who is actually a chinese. *finally* Things didnt go well either. She freaking cheated on me.
But seriously, until now, i have met many many many many types of girls. Seen all sorts of relationships and heard all sorts of breakup. Only came to this conclusion that relationships are really painful and stressful whether it be high time or low times. But so i was searching for a girl who would actually be the type of girl that i want. The type of girl that would spur me to be serious about her once again. The type where i could trust her and care for her knowing that this relationship is going somewhere. Im not going to say much about this, but im glad to know that such a girl actually exist in my life.
i really dunno what to update about anymore. I mean heck i have so many things to tell but i would rather people hear me. But its not like there are many people who would actually sit down and have a chat and talk their heart out with me. I have very few people like that close to me. Few guys and 1 girl who are actually that dear to me. People who would care about my life and how i live it. And i love em. Seriously i love you people!! haha.
