To be honest with you, although i wanna stay single, i cant help but feel very lonely at most times. Life can get boring at times actually. Sometimes we get so busy with other stuff that we start losing track with our inner self. Every night i do my QT i sit down on my bed and i get so shocked that i have done things in the day that i shouldnt have done. Maybe church people would tell me that i should talk to God about my problems. The problem with talking to God, is that you have to WAIT for a reply. Like heck i dunno how long.
I mean seriously, everyone needs a hearing ear once in a while. And its quite stupid when you are there for people, and when you need someone to be there for you, like heck, nobody's there. Then what do you do? I dunno?
For more than long enough this heavy feeling has been in my heart. I feel like im being treated like a fucking maid. Or maybe some fucking teddy bear where people use me as much as they like when they are down, and when they are happy, they fucking throw me to one side. The only fucking reason why im not typing everything out in my heart is bcoz this blog is not private. I am so close to making this blog private so that this blog would actually be mine and mine alone to trash things out. Its funny i have to actually resort to a fucking keyboard to let things off my heart.
