today is a darn stupid day. skiped school den end up onli got for a 30 min lecture. Stupid lecturer go call me. After that stayed in school to study end up nvr study coz patrick and all of us just seriously no mood to study. haiz.
I read a book by Rick warren. I am really inspired by what he said about life. Often we are so selfish that we all want to get the most out of life. But we are actually created to GIVE. Not to GET the most out of life. Which i thought was a very interesting statement. I wanted the most out of life. I was selfish and i end up being sad. But when i gave, i am much better off and happy. Its funny how life actually operate. When we recieve we are happy. But when we give, We are even more happy!
They say that Experience is the world hardest teacher. She gives the test first, then lessons afterwards. I couldnt agree more with this.
But then again, i sometimes wonder if i am heartless, or i am just too used to heartbreaks. I mean, when i had my first heartbreak, i freaking took 6 months just to get over her. But as i grow older, it shrank down to 3 weeks, den 1 week. Den now, its been 2 years and i never once spent more than 5 days being heartbroken over a girl. I do consider it a gift dat i dun spend alot of time being heartbroken. But then again, this so called "gift" wasnt very easy to get either. It was a really painful road to take. But who cares? wahahhaha!
I kinda woke up today and i lived my normal life. And i didnt realise i didnt think bout her till Ming li asked bout her. I guess im really heartless to let go of a relationship i cared so much for and not giving it any shit now. But i guess there is no point caring so much for a relationship when the other party doesnt give a shit either. So to come down to it, this relationship is just a piece of shit. And i just happen to put alot of care and concern for this piece of shit. But shit will always be shit. Only meant to be flushed down the toilet bowl. so i am done flushing. At least the toilet bowl is much cleaner now : )
