Saturday, August 02, 2008
This frequent chest's pains kinda scare me. But at least it taught me a good lesson. We get what we deserve. We do something, we take the consequences. Sometimes i listen to the music sung by rock stars and big stars. To me, their song is like a cry for help. Asking for someone to save them from their own mess. But they forget they were the ones who wanted stardom in the first place. So say, if i wanted a relationship, i pay for the price of it. I get hurt, i risk everything i have.They told me i am old enough to choose my own path. I made that choice. Is then there any point in convincing me to change paths to hurt myself. I made the choice not to run away, all i wanted is to protect myself. The problem is not locking myself up from love. The baby bird which comes out too early froms its nest kills itself. The thing is that its still too early for relationships, i dun wish to hurt myself too early. No doubt i will get hurt, no doubt i might fall for someone else. But its the same logic as not smoking. I can dun smoke, but i will still take in 2nd hand smoke. But by not smoking, i reduce my chances of not getting lung cancer. It doesnt totally eliminate the chances.I read xiaxue's blog. Its really true that people who do not have their own ideas shouldnt blog. Instead of blogging other stuffs taken from other people's blog. A blog is an online diary, and a diary is meant for ur own thoughts. Not to impress others, nor to gain popularity. My friends always tell me that i always blog sad stuff. Some even told me to change style. The reason i do not is that i didnt make this blog to impress others nor to entertain. I made this blog to record my thoughts. Its okay if what i blog is very different from me in real life. I am very well aware that i do not appear to be someone who thinks alot in real life. It might be weird for people who just knew me. But its okay. I am happy to be labelled as "happy go lucky" type of person by many of my friends. Its great! But its not me : )But anw's, enough of thoughts, Yesterday was a freaking LONG DAYY!! Went to school at around 9.30am. Late for class 30 mins again. And i was telling Ming Li for once i was on time. Damn, shud have been faster. Anw, as usual, had normal lessons. OH! And i got into my first option!! Computer programming!!!! haha. And i was so worried i couldnt get into programming. Why programming? I like programming, and it promises a freaking good futurelaaa. haha.Anw, after school went to woodlands to meet Edmund, shi min and ying ping. Walked around causeway point den bought an mp3 for Jun heng's birthday. quite a cool mp3 yo. Creative de. haha. After that i went to orchard to meet my sister AIJIE!!! haha. Den slack there help her with her work. Damn stupid sia, keep recording the amount of people go into taxi den wad time they leave all. So mah fan. And boring u know? And hot sia!! chatted with her, and she told me bout the guy she likes. bla bla bla. Talk cock with her as i always do. Den around 9.50pm left then went to church to meet my sister then dad fetched us then went to changi airport. After that went to mustfa to shop. I bought nothing. And i was sleeping while walking la. So tired -_-Oh well, i'll just upload some photo's from ystd when i was out with ai jie. Later still have to get ready to go to jun heng's 21st birthday party. oh well.
Nites people!! : )
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