Tuesday, September 09, 2008
I slept like freaking mad can? After finish chatting with ying ping and Ming Li ystd, went to bed at around 7pm. Was super duper tired coz past few days go home very late but woke up very early. So i slept all the way from 7pm to 3pm. So i slept a total of 20 hours today! wahahahha. Woke up feeling freah like mad. Was super hyper when i woke up. Woke up, saw Dad, he asked me to bath den we go fetch mummy den went to eat! Ate Japanese bento. OMGOMGOMG! Nice!! After that went to collect my specs. Im not going to camwhore with it. Sorry. Maybe when im out with frens then i try camwhoring with it yea?
Anw, chatted with ying ping yesterday. Whatever she said bout me is like on the spot. Yeah, i try to continuously improve myself in every way. But yea, Ying ping, im not jealous of him yea? haha. i just admire eurasian looking guys. haha. I mean, yea, i am someone who tries to improve myself in every way. So that i can be a better person. Not just in terms of looks. But sometimes people just take it as i am never happy with myself. In terms to say, i am changing. But why dun you people ask yourself, would u rather me not change? Lets just say, i know some part of me aint that good, would u rather i change it or leave it as it is? I mean, yea. I may have changed some parts of me for the worse, but question yourself people, is everyone perfect? And have you ever tried changing YOURSELF before you even open your mouth about me? Some people always say i am changing for the worse. But i have given up on them, for i realise that these people will never be pleased with me. They are expecting perfection. But they tend to forget they themselves arent perfect at all.
I am merely human, i have my own fair share of imperfections. I know deep down inside and i have already accepted the fact that i am not a good person. But does it mean coz im not a good person means i show everyone my bad side? I may have a bad temper but does it mean i show everyone my bad temper? People, its time to get the facts straight that its not being fake. Deep down in my heart i try to give the people around me the best side of me. Its coz i know they dun deserve a nasty fren. Its not coz i want to be fake.
Ying ping said that i keep remindind myself to be single, but its not that i want to be single. Yeah. I would say i really dun wish to be single. I would rather have a girl by my side whom i can love. But its seriously coz i couldnt find a girl of my type.
Jenny asked me why do i set my standard for a girl so high. And she said that maybe coz my standard was high thats why i could never find the right type for me. Maybe yes my standard for a girl is high. But i never set an impossible standard. I am not asking for a girl with Jessica alba looks nor a girl who has no brains and a girl who only knows how to serve her bf. In fact, if a girl is super duper pretty, i wouldnt even bother. I am not someone who has 50k worth of money but is asking for a ferrari. Its just stupidity. I know my own standard.
5:05 PM
