Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Just some reflections i've been thinking about. Nowadays, i've been living in a state of mind change. Im not sure how to say it but lets just say its a state where my thinking starts to change. Now each time i get sad over failed relationships, i just keep telling myself to change my state of thinking. Which comes to summarise, "If you have a reason to be sad, surely you have a reason to be happy". Then slowly by slowly, i start realising my mind starts shifting. I start to get hooked onto the idea of singlehood. And then slowly, i start realising my heart starts to be occupied by friends and families. And then Slowly i gave up the idea of getting attached. Then i slowly start realising that i have no special girl in my heart anymore!!
Now its a very good position to be in if you were me. For someone who has failed in so many relationships. Its a good thing to seal up and shut the door on having a girlfriend. Maybe i would still like someone. But what im saying is that the state of mind i am in now doesnt have a place for any girl. In short, i dun like anyone at the current moment. Which is exactly why im a happi fuck nowadays!! =] Maybe i still have a long way to go to the stage of totally kissing dating goodbye. But im glad im on my way =]
So i was just re-evaluating all my past failed relationships. Just to list out some of my major mistakes and most prob most of many people's mistakes.
1.) Love is'nt about lasting the distance. Its about how you walk together. So each time we think about this. We tell ourself, i want a long term relationship. anyone would. But why do we forget that love isnt about HOW LONG you hang on. Its about WHY you hang on.
2.) Love isn't selfish. I made this major mistake. Sometimes we all think to ourself, "this guy/girl will shower ME with love, do this for ME bla bla bla." But love is more of " What can i do for this person bla bla bla". I guess this is my biggest mistake i ever made.
3.) Love talks things out. If any couple were really serious about a relationship. They'd talk things out. Any quarrel can be talked out. With each argument will come a solution, followed by an agreement. yeap yeap =]
yeap yeap =] i've gotten things out of my chest =] So if you ask me, i aint exactly planning to make myself a better bf or whatever nonsense like that. Nope nope. Im closing my doors on having a gf. Like Aijie said. Im a good friend. But im not bf material. So im just gonna make myself a better friend =] HOHOHOHO!! okay. Sleep =] nites
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